New Blog

After looking at the site and viewing everything that is available for me to use i have to decided to switch blogs.

My new blog is jcsonlines.wordpress.com

I'm sorry for the inconvience but this is going to make so many more things available to me and if you don't have it already get Bloglines

it is the greatest tool ever for people that read blogs on a consistent basis

I love you guys and keep praying for the job at UPS. I sent a resume and the woman that i talked to had to talk to her manager because they are not taking any transfer employees at this time. So maybe someone (aka God) will convince them that they should hire me.

I need your prayers. Thanks for reading and I hope that you will follow on my new site.

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for the last time on blogger. :(

good blog to come

i had a class that was all about the discussion of abortion today and some pretty interesting things were brought up but i will talk about them later.

right now im going to eat lunch with the youtube king David Jacks



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Pray Pray Pray!!!

So i received a job opportunity with Masada inc. on Friday afternoon on the way to work. I informed them that i was keeping the door open for other opportunities. Upon hearing this they informed me that i had one week to make my decision.

So knowing that i have contacted the HR rep in Greenville SC for UPS. I am asking you all to pray for doors to open or close and for God to guide me into His will.

I need your prayers more than ever as this decision not only affects me but also Kristen. If you want to know what i "want" its the job at UPS. But what i need is God's will to be revealed to me and the need is always greater than the want.

I again want to thank you again for all of your prayers. Please, Please keep praying! I've never needed more prayer than i do right now.

Thanks for caring and investing in this young man's life. I love you guys and can't wait to see where God is working.

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yay golf

first before i get going I will have two interviews next week, not just one. IMG (sports marketing place) on Tues. Sept. 4th and Masada, INC. (fortune 500 clients mktg place) on Wed. Sept. 5th. Please pray for me on these days. I need all the prayers i can get and YES THEY DO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!!

I hit a golf club for the first time today. My success i can hit a wedge about 50-65 yards consistently.

But i hit my driver less than that!!! Hahaha so i definitely need a lot more practice but it was very fun.

Keep praying and i will give you updates on job progress.

yo its update time

i got a callback from masada inc. yesterday. They said they wanted to ask me some questions hopefully like this: "Can we pay you 400,000 dollars a year?" of "We would like to buy you a house to live in so you can work for us"

ok the second one wasn't a question but still. Anyway, I think that it means they want me for a second interview. I also have already set up my second interview for IMG set up for the fourth of September. Continue to pray.

Also on a very important side note. UPS in Greenville, SC just had a job opening for a full time sales rep. Is this God opening doors specifically for me?? I don't know that for sure but it is awfully funny. Anyway continue to pray that i would know God's will and that He would open and close doors for me.


I apologize for the delay but i just got dsl and i've been playing madden online. But the job process is still continuing and i will update you on any changes.

I'm going to call David Jacks now to make some videos!!!

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Update

First of all i want to thank everyone for their prayers. I believe more than anything the prayers that everyone contributed yesterday convinced a company that they needed to take a serious look at this kid from Drummonds.

My first interview was wed. at 1230. Its a sports and entertainment marketing company. And right there I am already sold. But knowing how shady the world is im keeping my excitement ata stable level. So it was a preliminary interview and it was supposed to last about 5 minutes. We talked about bball for about 10. The guy that interviewed me used to play ball at Furman University. He played against Rodney Carney and the mighty University of Memphis. So yeah we had some things to talk about.

He told me that he was interviewing 20 candidates and taking the top 5 for a second interview. Well i left pretty pumped the man himself was exciting and so was i after i left. I was waiting to know if i had made the first cut.

At about 5 that afternoon i get a call asking me back for a second interview!!! God is truly blessing me!!! I don't deserve the love and commitment that you all have made to pray for me. I thank you so much for that. God is working but the war isn't over. I don't have a job yet so keep praying.

I had an interview today at 1030. It was with a company called masada inc. Again after i left i loved it. I am a mktg. guy for sure. I was asked a question that i want you to think about and i won't tell you my answer. The question was:

Do you love to win or hate to lose?

Think about it.

Anyway knowing that nothing is guaranteed and that i don't know pay, compensation and benefits and development opportunities I am trying not to lean one way or the other.

But come on sports and marketing in one job??? Are you kidding me?

The callback time for Masada is next week on Friday at noon. That is when i will know if they are interested in my services.

Pray that God will continue to bless me and that I will get His job and that His desires will become mine.


Again i can't thank you guys enough! Keep on praying.

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quick update

hey for those of you that read this i want to let u know more specifically what you can pray for this week. Especially a certain mom of a guy that went to germany hahahaha. anyway, i have an interview at 1230 on wednesday afternoon at the place that i would be extremely interested in for a number of reasons one being that it advertises for sports teams.

not only that but i have to call and set up an appointment for a mktg. company that markets for the people that make quicken, quicken books, turbo tax etc.

and i also plan to walk up unannounced at the UPS in Greenville in hopes that they would let me talk to someone about possibly giving me full-time job there.

Please pray for me during this time on Wednesday and i will let you guys know how things go. i really need your prayers these employers will be going out on a limb to give me a job and i need God for this to happen so please pray and pray and pray.

I love you guys and i will be back in town and will see you all soon.


Thanks


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new feelings

I've always had this desire to win and get people on the bandwagon to success. But now im starting to realize how much of an impact i can have on individual's lives.

Let me tell you some of the situations that are going on.

One guy is going through a divorce and i know about it but he doesn't know that i know. How do i approach him? What do i say? Am i even able to give him advice, im not married...yet.

One guy is having some transportation problems and is one of my favorite guys at work, he's nice funny but is so innocent and i hurt for him.

One of the guys that i have trained from the ground up is leaving. Friday is his last day. I hope that he learned something from me to take with him in life.

One guy is an atheist. He knows where i stand and i know where he stands. He is observing me each and every day. I don't want to push but i do ya know. But i'm learning that God is in control and not me and im struggling with where my efforts fit in.

One guy has tremendous influence and brings light and joy in a postitive way. But he is living a life that is not what it should be. I'm hoping that i can reach him.

Being a good leader is one thing. I know that i am a good leader. God has gifted me to lead people. I see their wants and desires and can help them to reach them but at the same time they know who is in charge. But good leaders don't change lives. God changes lives. How can i be a good tool for God to use to change lives?

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21 years old

Well im now in the adult club what do i do now?

It was an incredible birthday. Kristen surprised me by coming in town and we had so much fun together. She's gone now but in three days i get to see her again.

School ends this week and finally i'll get a little break to think about adulthood. So many new decisions come my way. I'm pumped nervous and tired all at the same time about me about to start a new chapter in my life at the end of this year and it seemed like this birthday was the beginning.

Please pray for me in the coming week on Wed. and Thurs. I plan to visit at least three places in hopes of getting a job. If you would like to know more specifically what to pray for let me know.

Plus Jeff and Carmen are getting married next week and that means me and Kristen are next. Wow i love growing up.

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Adu to you

For more than half of my life i have made fun of soccer but now its probably one of my favorite things to do and watch. It hasn't surpassed football or tigers basketball and its not even close to playing the wii with kristen but it is growing in my mind.

And a couple of days ago Freddy Adu was traded. I guess you call it traded even though basically he was bought. In my opinion this is more like a pre move see man u and real madrid had him try out but they weren't ready to commit but they have some pretty good connections with the portugese team and want him to grow in his skill set.

As a 15 year old Freddy was supposed to bring the US out of mediocrity in the eyes of the soccer world. He had the entire hopes of the soccer nation on his shoulders. And now he's gone to Benefica a Portugese club.

I think this is great for Freddy it will take some pressure off of him and will let him do what he does best play the beautiful game. So Freddy i bid you adu and please bring it in the next world cup we'll all be waiting.


and for today i am


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?siht daer uoy naC

I have been told that sometimes i am extremely difficult to follow in my blogs. I apologize i am a lunatic when it comes to things going on in my mind and i try and write them all down as soon as they pop into my head. But i promise to proofread my blogs from now on.

Thanks for bearing with me in this wonderful thing i call a blog.

School

So by the end of next week summer school will be over and i couldn't be happier. Its been extremely tiring. Its filled with some stress, but not as much as people would like to tell you, until yesterday.

I get an email from the scholarship coordinator at the U of M and apparently they have no record of my service hours that i have to do in order to retain my scholarship. This means they will have to put a hold on my scholarship for the fall semester. Mind you this is August 1 and the semester ended around May 10th.

So i reply "i have absolutely no idea what you are talking about i've never had to do service hours for my scholarship in the past when did this change and why are you telling me now." I know that it seems really mean and upset by i promise that i wasn't in the least bit yelling or spitting or did i have my football face on. If you have ever played football with me you know what im talking about.

They inform me that i have taken honors classes every semester and that negates your need to fulfill the hours requirement and they don't review records until after the semester. Which is just awesome considering that was a whole 3 months ago. I have no problem doing the hours but i didn't know. So now im in a good ol conundrum (i think that is how you spell it). I asked if teaching sunday school at the church is considered serving the community and it is thank you Jesus!!

So hopefully this all works itself out soon.

And i will be on my way to graduation in the fall.

who says don't use illustrations

You know people say that you are supposed to have time alone with God and a time to study and i agree but sometimes you just run across a passage in your time with God when you are like what?

today was one of those days this is what i read today.

so im not sure what this means and please know my heart in no way is this me making light of my time with the Lord but i was just utterly confused. But that is probably from my lack of understanding and one day it will make perfect sense in where God is leading me but honestly i was really excited about the fact that Ezekiel didn't just get told to tell the Israelites that they were going to be under siege but he wanted him to show them what it would be like. Wow yeah God greatest idea ever!!! No lie this guy was chained up and had to lay on one side for about 13 months plus heat his makeshift bread with cow dung. If that didn't get their attention nothing would

Smile for Jesus

yeah well today i was going to bk for a chicken sandwich and there was this lady at the gas station across the street holding a sign that says smile Jesus loves you. I laughed only because she had a cheek to cheek kindergarten finger paint purple smile on her face much larger than any clown smile I had ever seen.

Plus, she wasn't smiling and she was drinking a gas station soft drink. Older woman with sign drinking not smiling with the biggest purple smile drawn on her face. Do you seriously have to fake that.

Honestly i could post about how stupid this is but really do we smile? Do we showcase the joy that God has provided? Do we have the Kool-aid purple smile on or the joy of God shone on our face? Smile Jesus Loves You!!!!


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yo what's up

yeah so i haven't blogged in awhile. Here's an update:

1. Looking at a black 07 mustang black interior really pumped about getting a new car.

2. Hanging out with David and Jesse has been much fun over the past month or two.

3. I think that Luscious should be my rap alias.

4. Jeff and Carmen are about to get married i'm exicted and just a lil jealous but our time is coming dear.

5. The new area thing at work is driving me nuts.

6. Looking for a job still hopefully some news in a couple of weeks for those of you who are interested. greer or greenville area let me know if you know someone please!!


I've been busy so sorry for the blog delay love you guys and can't wait to hang out with everyone whenever that may be


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being an example

well people will say sometimes well i would never become a christian because of this person or this group of people and you try and say well you have to look past them and look to Christ and we expect that to change their lives in some way. but look at this:

1 Corinthians 4:16

Paul says for the Corinthians to imitate him! how crazy is that could you imagine telling people "live like me"

paul continues later in the book with this

wow i was just kinda shocked by this. word of mouth is the strongest advertising that a company can have but did you know for every one positive comment there have been about 7 or 8 negative ones!

you don't get many chances unfortunately but you have to live your life as an example and have the boldness in Christ to know that people are looking at you and welcome it.

so im going to give you a few examples in my life that i have looked to:

Jeff Hill, this guy is bold bold bold. He gets a word and he sticks to his guns. People are afraid of the stands that he takes most of the time because they aren't willing to sacrifice as much as him. Me and him relate so well because i balance him out. I appreciate his boldness and his stand and desire a simdge of that for my own life.

Mrs. Robyn, teacher. She can get a point across in so many different ways but she is so humble and seeks for God to be the true teacher. Understand mrs. robyn that you are a tool that God has continued to use in my life and in so many other lives. Please don't ever get discouraged you are awesome.

Kristen Barfield, you think you can relate to people you have no idea!! People literally flock to her like soap in the bathroom. She is incredible with people and with kids. kids adore her and they see people for who they are they really do and she is just so incredible she has a reserved boldness that she only lets me see i guess but so wise when it happens. I wish i could relate to people in the way that she does.

Toddles, i waited for you to have kids for so dang long man. Todd is always happy it seems, i've seen him frustrated maybe once but there is always a smile on his face. I haven't had the privelege to know his heart as much bcuz i was in high school at the time but he loves people and is so humble. The only thing wrong with him is that he's a clemson fan. i really do see how brayden and anniston just cling to you. Thanks for showing people how to reach people.

Jack Ronald, you are alot like me, you desire excellence, business and leadership qualities about you are undeniable. You will not settle for second best. You will do whatever it takes to reach people. You build relationships with those you work with better than i've seen done and i desire that for my life.

my dad and charlie bishop, i know most of you that read this will be like who is that? i will write a post about him later but these two men have taught me all about servanthood. its not about me its about God use what you have with all you have. Be a man open the door for people, shake hands, live up to your promises carry a big stick not a big mouth. These are lessons that i've learned from you. I desire to be able to make the sacrifices that my dad made and continue to know that it was the right thing even when it sucks.

mom and stacie, are you kidding me they're nuts! jk but talk about boldness me and mom clash honestly because we are both strong willed leaders. but i wish i could have half of the discernment that my mom has. she is so in touch with the Holy Spirit its nuts literally insane. Stacie is a reserved leader that is sometimes shy about stepping up to the plate but me and her have a bond that cannot be broken and i hope that i can have as much fun in life as she has already had.

thanks guys so much to learn from all of you and you all mean so much to me. Please continue to live in a way where God is always glorified in all that you do.

o u t

finally a free day

well today is friday and no class today....yayayayay!

looking for plans on saturday any ideas let me know. plus im really tired.

you can laugh at this by the way: i have a modeling and acting contract and earlier this week i had a message on my answering machine at home asking if i wanted to schedule an appointment with a national talent scout. will i call back to set up an appointment probably not but it was funny cuz i haven't heard from these guys in like a year and a half.

becks is hear in america and frankly im pumped because that means there is gonna be some more coverage of soccer. And i am super excited about that but im gone now to basically waste time until work.



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the test

so 2 corinthians 13. paul wants us to examine ourselves to see if we are in the faith.

Paul has been battling for the people of Corinth's attention throughout the letter and not only that but also has been battling for the people themselves.

so Paul in this last chapter wants the people to see that they must examine themselves in the faith. that if they do that they will see Paul as he truly is a messenger of truth.

he says that when they examine themselves and when they past the test they will also approve of Paul and the group of ministers with him and reject the outsiders.

now this should be evidence enough but Paul also tells them to do the right thing? why would he do this knowing that if they examine themselves in the Spirit that God would show them that Paul is right and he cares for them and his message is from God.

why would he ask them to do the right thing? well number one it would be weird if he asked them to do the wrong thing. but we see Paul's heart here. the consequences of them saying Paul we don't think that you are of God is not as important as the people doing what is right.

are we worried about the consequences of what people will think of us or do we really really want the best of them. did it bother Paul i think that you can tell that it did throughout this letter but Paul remained true to his purpose. To see God do a work in the Corinthians lives.

is that my passion? could i honestly say that i am more worried about people learning from me than the circumstances of my actions. honestly no i can't but i can tell you boldly that my response is changing. And that is all an act of God.

God is shaping me to serve others to obey even when it makes me upset and to live a life as an example for Christ. see is it enough to teach excellently and for people to hear my words and learn from them....i guess it is.

But do people look at my lifestyle and see that i live up to the things that i teach that i am an example not just through speech but through purity deed and service.

i am learning these things. I know that God is moving in my midst. I pray that everyone would carefully read Galatians 5. This involves the test that Paul so earnestly desires that we take.

realize these two things:

it is a continuous battle (Gal. 5:17)

and

that it is not a negotiated peace it is our execution of the sinful nature totally
(Gal. 5:24)

it is our responsibility to walk in the Spirit and also to crucify the flesh

the battle will not end in this life and yet we cannot negotiate peace with the flesh.

we must fight

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hey hey hey

well after yesterdays crazy post i know that you are all thinking im close to committing suicide or somehow am going to raise an awareness that my life is worse than yours.

i also hope you understand that neither of these are close to my desire. I am however trying to let people in the doors that i have put up.

i have so much to say but man is God sovereign today in 2 Corinthians Paul talked about the thorn in his flesh and how when he is weak that is when he is made strong.

wow

one more time

wow

so now im not saying that i have some thorn in my flesh because when you study this i think that its much more than just a certain situation but something that you can not rid yourself of. God wouldn't take the thorn from Paul but instead chose to leave it there.

but also understand that God uses things to draw us closer to Him and mold us into what He wants us.

so understand that God is working and always is.

so now im waiting for the doors to be open somewhere else. thanks for the encouragement and love you all.

also for those of you bible junkies out there i read where it is actually a biblical principle to major on the majors and minor on the minors so look for this soon im sure there are people ready to argue but honestly im not looking for that just will relay some info that i gathered.

love you guys.

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my struggle

i guess that i have struggled with what to write for about 18-24 hours now.

you see its hard for me to be very honest and yet show love. I was completely taken aback yesterday by the attendance at our church. How can you refuse to show up when you are most needed at your church and then come on a celebratory day for those of us who stuck with it. Frankly i don't know how God was pleased with our worship yesterday.

but that is not what im struggling with. See in no way am i perfect or would i ever think of claiming to be. But i also make this my goal 1 Timothy 4:12 as a young person growing up in church you always hear about how people shouldn't look down on you because of your youth and the message usually stops there.

but i've always taken and i do mean always cared about the "being an example" paul doesn't tell timothy "hey man don't let people get you down cuz of your age, you don't deserve that" instead its more like "hey tim, people shouldn't look down on you for your age but you have to be an example, you must put a priority on your lifestyle more than a priority on their criticism.

its also funny that speech is the first thing mentioned o be careful what you say.

but with this blog i want people to know the real me and i struggle to do so because of this verse sometimes. lately i have let more people "in" than ever before to what im thinking, to how i feel, and to my needs and desires but not everyone.

the reason why is because well im supposed to be above board im an example. I'm not a say one thing do another guy im an example, a hard worker, and im committed. it straight up makes me mad when i see the lack of commitment i saw the other day. it hurts, really hurts.

that people have so many bad things to say and be so just down right evil in their speech and can come into a worship service and praise God like nothing ever happened is just completely shocking.

but you know what i said hey God is a miracle working God and these people can change, this pastor has a heart for discipleship and really loves teaching the Holy Spirit will change some lives here.

at this same time im really starting to realize where my place is what im good at and embracing it with more passion and fervor than ever before. and yet i get the news from my parents that we are leaving.

do i know why? yes

am i upset? yes

do i blame them? not in the least bit

do i think its the right decision? honestly im not sure

so now that i have this passion this deep driving passion to teach young people i have to start all over again from scratch of being an example. you have to earn people's trust and devotion and i was beginning to do that. but now i have to start over.

and im just not sure why. why would i suddenly discover this passion and God take it away not just once but twice. not only that but have to start over from scratch. if you know me you know im not a sit and soak guy im completely the opposite.

so why? i have essentially 5 months left before the prospect of moving becomes a reality why now? why the distance?

before ya know kristen is in sc but i've still got my friends now those relationships are sure to take a dent. why? frankly im heart broken and i want you guys to understand my heart. its hard for me to let people in. im just tired.

its so hard. i try to smile and bear it like hey my fiance lives in another state but im doing awesome! but i just can't its too hard. im tired of the distance i can't fulfill my passion i just can't see where God is moving right now except for that im learning.

im tired of tears im tired of the struggles im just looking for the end of the valley and basically it looks like a 5 month old valley.

im not looking for answers or advice because i want God to answer my questions so if you have advice keep it to yourself. i don't want advice i just don't. and guess what you probably haven't been there. i'm sure your fiance didn't live about 12 hours away or go out of the country for a year. i just don't want advice.

but this is where im at. i don't what or how to feel and im just...

its just hard ya know.

so i need prayers i need encouragement and i need God more than anything else.

stay steadfast please. be honest and open and challenge people.

Crosspointe i pray that God would ultimately change you in a way that you can't see right now a way that i know God wants you to. Quit being mediocre start being great.

......

Bad news

well after church today my parents told me that our family was leaving crosspointe. Various reasons for this decision mostly because of bad leadership (none of which by the way are actual "position leaders".

how do i feel? i feel like i need to obey my parents. Ex. 20:12

even when it hurts.


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real quick

im about to go to work but real quick how do you feel about God's sovereignty and man's responsibility. It obvious that both exist biblically but where are the boundaries any scripture you have would be awesome im ready to get waist deep in this stuff and im pumped about it.


what is our responsibility?

what are we held accountable for?

what choices are ours to make?

these are a few of the questions that i hope to answer. let me know what you guys think and questions that you might have that i will try to answer as i begin to study this difficult subject


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well i have much to write about

well some interesting things have happened to me lately especially at work:

1. i took over a position that hasn't met a particular goal in a while and i met it already God is truly great!!!

2. i had to write myself up on the 6th day of running this area because of the problem. (6 days and im already under the microscope and i was pretty upset i came to fix the thing i did not cause it!!!)

3. I love the pressure the intensity that i put on myself to push my people and myself to go beyond the norm and be better.

4. i realized that the struggle with my call is more of fear of the unknown. I couldn't live my life without teaching the word (even if its to people that don't want to hear) I'm fearful that intense in your face teacher J.C. will tickle people's ears and not preach the word.

5. the idea of being responsible for two peoples lives seems much harder than just mine.

6. God is teaching me for sure but is the passion there am i seeking enough am i trying enough???

7. i am not satisfied

8. i am pumped about may of next year and have been practicing two words for like a month now!!!

9. Kristen is amazing and she always tells me like it is and pushes me to get better and gives me more confidence she is an unbelievable support to me already and our lives together are just about to truly begin

10. Memphis is the best basketball team in the country. Duke, Kentucky, UNC, Kansas nope the blue and gray. Let's go Blue!!!

perplexed

as i coming to the end of my bachelor's degree (praise God im almost done) i find myself more perplexed than when i started.

it will take some explaining to clarify what i mean but understand that i am in no way upset or unsatisfied with where i'm at. God has me at this point in my life for a reason.

I'm learning so many new things im looking at God's word in a more powerful way and yet at the same time it just seems that i am not worthy for the brevity of the situation the world and our country is in and also that im just scared to be honest.

not in a way that everyone else says that they aren't worthy but really am not worthy. and totally frightened by the fact that my call might be to ministry.

we live in a society that is filled with so many different messages. and i am like paul in a way i feel perplexed

im not in despair but i am faced with a decision that i must make both i believe are viable decisions and while there are positive and negative aspects of both i realize that i am called to one and one alone i just don't know which one it is.

do i take the path of being a manager and executive a salesman that leads people and molds them into good men and that i would be able to provide a much better living and situation for my family?

or do i teach men about the word, about God and show them a life that is changed and committed and honest and real and sacrifice some of the better things for my family. by the way this means that my bride will always be in the spotlight and church people will just jump at the chance to slander me not to my face but hers and my children will bear the weight of being under a microscope and that not only will God judge along with their parents but also every member of the congregation that we are a part of?

am i confused yes am i growing impatient but i also know that there are many decisions in life like this. and i also understand that a man is not where he works but who he is.

but still the decision remains unanswered and i wait for the answer.

is it my decision to make? will it be made for me?

time will tell but know that me and my family need your prayers and more importantly God's hand in our lives. thanks for the time that you all take to read this blog and understand that i treasure each of your opinions.

i love you guys

GO GOD!!! YOU WILL TRIUMPH IN ALL THINGS!!!!


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edification

1Follow the way of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts, especially the gift of prophecy.
2For anyone who speaks in a tongue does not speak to men but to God. Indeed, no one understands him; he utters mysteries with his spirit.
3But everyone who prophesies speaks to men for their strengthening, encouragement and comfort.
4He who speaks in a tongue edifies himself, but he who prophesies edifies the church.
5I would like every one of you to speak in tongues, but I would rather have you prophesy. He who prophesies is greater than one who speaks in tongues, unless he interprets, so that the church may be edified.

Chapter 12 spoke of spiritual gifts the Corinthian church which was extremely gifted but the more flamboyant gifts were being desired(tongues) by the church.

Chapter 13 "the love chapter" was to let the Corinthian church know that love should be the first desire before spiritual gifts.

If they take care of those first we come to chapter 14. Desire the gifts that edify and grow the church. Even though all gifts are good the ones that are the best are the one which do the most good.

"Every gift of God is a favour from God, but then those are to be most valued that are most useful" Matthew Henry

Are your gifts being used? Are we desiring others to be changed by implementation of God working in our lives? Do we desire to edify others or do we want to figure out our lives first or clean up our lives first?


Love others, deny yourself this is the pattern that Paul set down for us in 1 Corinthians i pray that i would follow his example and the Lord's teaching.

love others more than yourself that is how your ministry will be fulfilled.

pray that i would use my gifts for the most benefit of others. thanks for your prayers i need them.

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Is this what passion is?

So after so much talking and thinking yesterday with my friends i went to church last night.

the message was pretty good and as always the Spirit can use God's word and He did again in my life. consecrated, committed, and consistent.

I don't believe that the consecration comes from myself(after all God calls us and sets us apart for His divine purposes) but the commitment and the consistency do. So God again worked on my heart but what i wanted to tell you guys was this.

Me and Jeff were talking about some profound things most involving where we are at personally and where we are going (which was a resounding not sure) but we also talked about emotion and in particular the Spirit of God and His presence in our lives.

It just seems that sometimes I don't feel the presence of God. All the time knowing that He will never leave me nor forsake me but just not "feeling" it. So yesterday before the service I asked God just let me feel your presence i want to feel you.

Now you are probably imagining crazy stories of people and their experiences with such things. But i want to assure you first of all that you might read this and be dissapointed that there weren't fireworks or flashes of light or explosions but I felt the Spirit inside of me...

I was told last night about an opportunity for the kids in my discipleship class. An opportunity to spend time with their new leader and also a chance to journey deeper with God. To be committed to something that will impact their lives.

The catch: the best time to do this was during the discipleship class hour. I was asked sincerely asked not ushered into or forced into but asked if I would be willing to give up my class so they could have this incredible opportunity.

For once it just wasn't about me...

I cried last night and was devastated that my class was gone. For you teachers out there, there is no greater joy than teaching teachable people. I felt the Spirit inside of me grieve but reassurance that this was God's sovereignty working itself out not only for the students but also for me and Kristen.

Now i have to go back to teaching kids that frankly could care less about learning. I'm being negative and some might even say that im putting a limit on God but understand that I'm not but its just not the same teaching people that want to learn and grow and expecting to teach those that just don't get it (jeff you feel me here, i know)

So pray for me, and more importantly for those kids. They are going through the roughest part intellectually in their lives and they need a guide. Maybe God wants to use me in the class that i will be going to, or maybe its just another part of the separation process. I don't know God hasn't revealed that but i know that im going to miss that class but im thankful that God answered my prayer.

I felt His presence, thank you...

:)

out

100th post

man 100 posts, i can't believe i have actually stuck with this thing and im more amazed that people actually read this thing.

i am starting a new thing in my life trusting God with who I am and not with my effort so i've done something crazy that some people will laugh at and others will freak out about.

But im into symbolism, big time. God used symbolism to clearly express to people what He wanted them to know and understand about Himself.

well i did that yesterday. new area, new outlook on grace and life, and a dedication to depend on God (almost seems like a contradiction, striving to depend on God...)

but enough of that what to write about in my 100th post. I will leave you with some advice that i received from my parents that somehow works. They have told it to 3 people 2 of them are now married with kids and 1 is plannin to get married.

its also in the book true faced.

"we can't wait for perfect people before we trust people"

no one is perfect its true. My mom and dad tell singles that seem to be struggling to find that "one" this information.

Quit trying to find the perfect mate, because when you do you usually push away the ones that actually care and love you.

people aren't perfect they are flawed, however as im learning you can't look at saved people as sinners.

it gives you a reason to reject and not love them. if you see them as a sinner they will dissapoint and sin and you will reject them. if you see them as a saint they sin and you sympathize with them you care and want to keep them accountable.

how do we look at ourself? how do we view others? is it the same way that God looks at them and us?

if you ask yourselves those questions you might find out more about yourself than what you bargained for.

pray that God will allow me to see people as he does and that i will realize that i am no longer a sinner but a saint because of the overpowering, underserving grace of God through Jesus Christ. And should live like a saint depending upon God in every part of my life.

Love you guys and thanks for reading this and caring about my life. It truly means alot.

God bless

i'm out

a list

1. kristen got to see the Boston Red Sox play yesterday and that has got to be one of the coolest things ever. I've always wanted to see the Red Sox, Cubs, and Yankees play live. only the yankees so i could boo every second.

2. the Boss was at work yesterday to check out the work area that i just took over....yesterday!!! Needless to say they are completely result driven and want it done and are trying to give me a way to do. I love the challenge but it flat wore me out yesterday.

3. I anticipate starting anew and afresh with mine and kristen's life.

4. truefaced is an awesome book. still struggling with trying not to try its so weird to me.

5. right now im thinking how much are groceries and utilities and stuff im sure they are a joy.

6. job, dwelling place, money, more school, church, are all things im trusting God for.

7. man this is officially the worst time for sports and no i will not be a fan of nascar.

8. 2 of the 4 polls have this team at No. 1 in the country

9. as for the schedule can you say kentucky, tennesse, arizona, georgetown, gonzaga, and the matchup of the two biggest freshmen in the country usc. We play some folks.

10. we lost 4 last year and guess what we made it to the elite eight for the second year in a row sorry duke and unc, and that was after we lost our 3 top scorers.

be scared america very scared as dickie v would say "they're awesome baby!!!"

continue to pray for me and kristen we need it thanks everybody love you guys

out.

Trust

well i've been struggling with a few things lately and knowing that i need to address them i've been seeking answers.

pride and lack of trust.

i got a book recommendation from JR (thanks by the way) its called truefaced. The entire concept is that we need to stop striving to please God and instead trust Him.


to be brutally honest it seems to easy. Shrug off your burdens upon the shoulders of God and realize that its not you to lead or strive but instead only follow where God leads and rely on Him to show you nothing else.

No need to clean, no need to feel ashamed.

we are not saved sinners but instead transformed or more clearly created saints.

God's grace transformed us into a new creation, perfect in God's eyes through Christ, so why in the world do we see ourselves as broken pieces not fit for God's service.

This effort and workload breeds more sin, sin that i know all too well, pride, envy, comparison, anger, shame, all of which are results of the thing that we are working towards!!!

But is it this easy? Honestly i still have a hard time believing that it is. Am i trusting God fully???

NO im not but i am a little which is more than i have trusted in the past and for that i am thankful for God's overwhelming grace none of which is deserved.

pray and let me know what you think...is it really this easy??

out

The Sizzler

Well i've always wanted to talk about this so i think it will be interesting to see what people think about this:

In marketing, we say that we don't sell the steak we sell the sizzle.

well what about church, where is our focus. Is it on the steak or is it the sizzle.

Our purpose of servanthood to Christ and overall purpose to worship and bring Him glory will always remain the same. Is that what we are about or not?

just thought about this the other day in class...interesting i thought.


i'm out

On the horizon

im looking forward to a couple things in the not so distant future:

1.getting married very psyched

2.graduating college to be done with school but not with learning is a large desire of mine

3.bein on my own for a while it seems like it will be relaxing to come home to my apartment (after hanging out with kristen all day cuz we'll be in the same zip code)

4.new challenges. I love a challenge and i just love workin my butt off to get it done.

5.and most exciting is seeing God's hand orchestrate my life. I don't know how or when but its gonna be awesome. Thanks to some advice (i.e. Kristen Barfield) the worrying is subsiding.

Look out world im headed for the horizon.

i'm out

What's on your mind J.C.?

well i'll tell you:

1.unfortunately still worried about the job trusting is so much harder than doing.

2.had four total people in discipleship class is this a coincidence or a sign of things to come???

3.i'm trying to work on practicing humility, it will happen more at work than anywhere else. can God reveal things to me if im not absolutely on top of my game? is anything keeping me from seeing something or is it just not time?

4.what difference does my life make. is it enough am i laboring enough am i giving enough

5.kristen barfield is unbelievably creative. i knew this from the start but now that she is behind planning an entire event and is the leader of that process its awesome the ideas that she has and how she is producing our wedding day.

6.there is obvious tension at Crosspointe. the discipleship class is completely a refreshing time for me and you can cut the air in the service with a chainsaw or a plasma cutter whichever you prefer.

7.i'm gonna miss all the friends that are leaving...it seems like more and more its me and God and kristen. is this to make my move easier or to teach me some crazy lesson that i need to know.

8.first test of the summer today im pretty psyched about it. Why? semester is almost over and the 10th of May gets closer and closer.

9.im ready for football season please hurry.

10.my 21st bday is coming up in 2 months what should i do? power rangers party anyone?

please continue to pray for God's provision and not only that but His revealation of what He is doing to me and Kristen. thanks for everything to the people who read this thing im thinking of a title change any ideas let me know.

Beefy, Cheesy melt from Taco Bell = Awesome!!!

i'm out

Just something to think about

Love God then Love people. that is how it was laid out. Jesus said it.

I'm a manager, my job is to get people to perform at their best.

I'm a leader, natural and learned. I am always seeking to improve myself. One of the reasons that we succeed as a belt is because my people always know where i stand.

If you mess up i'll let u know and then let u know that u can do better. If you are doing good i'll let u know that as well.

Reading John C. Maxwell and also the many, many, many textbooks and lectures that i've heard in my buisness classes i know how to approach people and what works and what doesn't.

So i pose this for you to think about. If God judges the thoughts and intents of the heart. Is it you loving people as a leader or is it using them as a resource?

Do we do everything out of love? Or do we do it for ourselves?

Watch it pick it up and fix it. I pray that God would make me more sensitive to people's needs and to truly love them.

And that my ministry would never be about me but about others.

Love you guys. Pray for me.

I'm out

What's up with J.C.

well let me tell you:

1.i'm waiting on marriage, graduation, and a job in a place that is not Memphis but is in Greenville, SC

2.anger, confusion, sadness all rolled into one event at a place where love should be the main characteristic is absence.

3.excited about discipleship class. This class has revived me. I'm psyched every week to teach and this is in no way a joke im serious. I'm psyched and pumped every week. Spiderman 3 tomorrow and its gonna be awesome.

4.cooking again today in hopes that somehow it will prepare me to aide Kristen in our future food endeavors as a family. Basically so she doesn't have to cook all the meals in our household.

5.waiting on a job and its frustrating really frustrating. I definitely am learning how to truly trust God.

6.I've never said this with so much meaning. Long Distance sucks!!!

7.Somehow God is setting up the life for me and Kristen and I pray that sooner rather than later He would let me in on exactly what it is, but i'll be waiting.

love you guys thanks for your prayers, pray for me and Kristen and the stress of planning a marriage and also for me and finding the job not just a job. God wants me to impact people at a certain place and I need to make sure that i don't miss it.

keep praying, keep hoping, keep striving, and keep waiting on God.

I'm out

well what to say

to be honest i fear for writing this blog today because even though i will write it in love people will think that I'm not so im going to take as much of me out of it as i can and just leave it up to scripture and God to show you some things.

First Nehemiah 4

its sad that people are building and they have to fend off attacks not only from the enemies but also from their own people.

Second

Third

An Encouragement for Freedom Church and mostly from me to J.R. and Todd

10 days is a long time

I've been in the Atl the past week for my cousin's graduation and kristen is in town so there has been an obvious delay.

I'm posting to raise the awareness of where i'm at right now. I am almost finished with a book called 7 Biblical Truths you won't hear in church by David A. Rich.

Its very good but i have some problems with one of the chapters. Its called Living for Jesus will frustrate you.

It talks about how trying to live for Jesus is unbiblical. And so is trying to repay Him. The logic and summary of the chapter is that God will accomplish His will in you no matter what which leaves me to think to myself what in the heck am I supposed to be here for.

I know that God is all powerful and that He in no way needs me understand that i truly do understand all of that but where do my day to day actions fit in. Its not explained very well by Mr. Rich so im trying to find an answer if you get a chance pick up the book its really good.

But more than anything read your Bible its got all the answers. and if you have anything to help me with this subject please comment and let me know im trying to find some information on it. Thanks.

Love you guys and i wouldn't expect another blog for awhile at least until Kristen leaves. I'm kinda busy for a change!!!!


I'm out!!!

well im on the way to recovery

well i still have no idea what is wrong but i finally am starting to feel a little bit better it seems like.

I have probably the worst digestive system of a 20 year old male on earth its nuts, but frankly im done talking about it.

This is where im at: i talked about a month ago to a "representative" from UPS in greenville, sc and sent a resume i also called about a week after so she could confirm that she received my resume.

well she never called back...

yesterday i called again and she answered and said that my resume is pending. They are not accepting transfer employees right now. And i don't want to transfer i want a job in greenville and if i have to give up my seniority that's fine but UPS doesn't understand that.

So anyway to say im not worried is crazy but i don't graduate for another 7 months so shouldn't worry right?

anyway if you know someone in greenville, sc who needs an overachieving ultra competitive marketing guy let them know im coming.

Plus God is teaching me so much and im really into my discipleship class its gonna be awesome. Debate this week seriously if you want to know both sides of calvinism vs. free will show up at 8 on Sunday its gonna rock and im pumped.

Plus im gonna get married! (i just realized how the exclamation point is very overrated it doesn't express my excitement enough)

I have so much to learn and i'm still very much the clay being pounded and needs way more pounding by my loving Potter.

Also, think about this, reading a lot of different books right now and one of the things that pointed out that i have never heard. God's will involves the Word, the Holy Spirit and our will.

Our will? The book said that the biggest obstacle we have to overcome is a lack of commitment and that is where we struggle just think about that. Where is your commitment is it to safety, your pleasure or is it in God's will???

Love you guys.

i'm out

so about my stomach

the doctor called last night and gave me a prescription that i have to take with gatorade. But he also said "I don't really know what's wrong with you."

so hopefully this medicine that he is giving me (which doesn't even really fit my condition only because no one knows what my condition is) will fix my insides.

Anyway love you guys have a great week.

Kristen i miss you and can't wait to see you on Friday!!!

i'm out....

mother's day

A tribute to my mother:

for all the times you've cooked my food
cleaned the house,
washed my clothes,
For the moral support
the loudest cheers in the stands
the truth no matter what.
For teaching me about boldness
for showing me love,
for bragging on me
for being an example

and most of all for the PRAYER!!!!

We probably go through more stuff than alot of people mom but you were truly ordained by God to be my mother. You match wits with me and still love me all the same.

And one thing i know for sure because everyday i've woken up and you are always and i mean always (no joke its like you don't sleep) you are praying with the longest prayer list ever and you won't stop until you complete the thing. And I know that it has done nothing but keep me here

So mom thanks....for everything

i'm out

update on stomach

well i went to the doctor yesterday and i thought for a minute i was right.

he told me that he thought that i had appendicitis and that i needed to go have a ct scan. so i went there dranked what felt like a gallon of this strange yellow substance that would coat my insides so the machine could take a picture of me.

i then take the picture and after about 20 minutes they told me i could go home! (confused, i sure was) they didn't say what was wrong but they didn't think it was serious enough to do surgery in the meantime my stomach is ok but still something is wrong. So anyway Monday they should tell me what's going on.

Anyway thanks for your thoughts and prayers and i love all you guys especially you kristen you make me a better person dear....

Time to look for some more stomach illnesses

I'm out.

yeah still having stomach problems

so im going to the doctor today and i still have no idea what is wrong and i have been looking online (which is crazy)

don't look online if there is something wrong with you you will always look up the worst thing. From my intense search online i think that i have appendicitis.

The symptoms seem to match up but when i get to the doctor he will probably tell me i ate some bad potato chips and it will wear off or something.

anyway pray that i just have a really bad tummy ache.

I'm out.

Challenging word

hey challenging word by jeff today in his blog check it out.

To me this is incredibly convicting. Is it enough to suffer persecution for being a virgin or not drinking or not dropping a f-bomb or any other curse word. Is that real persecution??? Cuz again i suffer this but compared to others around the world that is nothing.

Am I doing enough, no. So extremely convicting post. I love the Bible read it, learn it, love it.

Interesting thing i read the other day really came alive through Matthew Henry's commentary. When building the temple in Exodus

The Basin made for washing was made from the mirrors of the women! How treasured are those items ladies. Imagine the sacrifice to give up your mirror for the cleansing of the priests. Again God requires the best and in this instance it involved those women that were "eminent and exemplary for devotion"

What would you give up for Christ, (believe me completely speaking to myself) is it enough did it hurt when you gave it. Count it a joy and allow God to bless you. Is there a need go and meet it and don't hold back and sit on the bench.

It's time Crosspointe to step up to the plate. Quit sitting in the shadows and running that mouth. Don't sing it bring it.

I'm out.

Stomach pain

Well after my last blog which was feeled with disgust I have developed some of the worst pain i have ever had.

Last night i literally thought i was gonna die. My pain was destroying my insides and it was unbelievable that something that brings me so much joy is now my sworn enemy.

I think it is one of a couple of things:

1. really bad gas

2. My appendix was throwing a party and accidentally blew itself up with a firecracker.

3. I ate a whole porcupine and it wasn't very happy about that.

4.Or this

I'm guessing number four but i really need a new stomach

Pray that i live

I'm out.

I'm a scientologist!!!

yeah well at least that's what my mom told me i was the other day. It pretty much ticked me off mainly because she has no idea what that even is.

also things that have made me mad. Pretty much all day yesterday at church. I really want to post about something but im sure i will say something that i will not say in love so i will not post about it.

I was also told last night by guess who an old person about how i need to help stack chairs. Which is only funny number one because i had just stacked chairs and secondly because it was more important for this person to suggest that people that were younger than her to pick up chairs than to actually make an effort to pick up chairs.

It was like she was in ms. pac-man running around trying to eat all the young people she could find because she wanted to let us know how irresponsible we are because we aren't as close to death as she is.

Also this came to my realization the other day. Is there anywhere in the Bible that talks about older people being an example for those younger than them? This is a serious question. These are some reasons i want to know:

1.If we believe that the whole Bible is true why have i only heard how important it is to obey your parents and respect your elders but never heard how you should be an example to your kids (even though it has been assumed or alluded to it has never been specifically addressed.

2.If it is not in there should it explain something to adults (oldies) that the Bible addresses young people so much and old people not so much????

3.Why must adults quarrel? I want to say so much more on this but im sure I'll be called a muslim or an occult leader so i will hold back.

Man please read your Bibles It makes me so angry to see people just throw around Bible verses that are so completely out of context it shouldn't even be allowed as intellectual thought.

Hey Crosspointe wake up!!! Quit trying to hide things. Quit trying to please everyone. Quit bickering. By the way Read This

I pray that love would flood my life cuz its not there right now and I'm just praying that God would be glorified in this in some way.

I'm out

weekend thoughts

I'm so stinkin excited about tomorrow morning!

I will be taking over the 8 o clock class tomorrow and im so pumped. I'm getting an opportunity to lead kids that show up at 8 in the morning to learn about God!

I have plans and dreams that I want these kids to take over from me in these next couple of months and im pretty sure that I haven't been this excited about our church in a long time. Which is definitely a reflection on me not just our church.


If you read this make it to the 8 o clock sunday school hour and hang on for the ride of your life. It gets started tomorrow.

P.S. i don't listen to music much on the radio but today i decided to and im glad that i did. I heard a country love song where the chorus ends with the line:

"I want to check you for ticks"

Funniest line in music history!!!

Love you guys pray for tomorrow that God chooses to bless that time!!!

I'm out.

Vision

So this morning i had this dream that a bat (not baseball but like a flying rat) had flown on my head while i was sleeping and was just staying there and was flappin all crazy and stuff so i woke up and grabbed the closest thing and starting to destroy my pillow.

It was a dream and i laughed as im sure you are now.

But this is what i needed today. Sometimes something feels so stinkin real and you just have to act on it.

For a long time i've struggled with vision for my life. You guys know me if i have a vision or a goal i go get it. (usually faster than someone else(a lil joke about my competitive spirit))

But i haven't and still don't have a clear vision, which i heard today is this:

'a compelling picture of a preferable future that inspires us to perform'

that is what i want. But now i understand that you can't manufacture it. It has to be given by God. I pray that one day my vision is not big but colossal and that God will use my flawed and weak self to change as many people's lives as possible.

God used leaders to fix problems and change lives, but He showed them the need first. Well now there is a need. My vision while not my main vision or mission in life it is what i must do.

Please pray for me as i follow God and pray that i will listen. I really need your prayers in this area of my life. Please pray. Love you guys. To God be the glory, great things He has done.

I'm out

See what had happened was...

well here's what went wrong:

1. a wire came loose on my flight from Memphis, I was supposed to leave at 735 am but didn't board the plane until 9 am!!

2. i sent msgs. to josh bradley(guy filming the video and in on the plans) trying to let him know that i would miss my connecting flight because of the delay, he didn't get them. Mrs. Beth (Kristen's mom) sent me a txt saying she was waiting in the greenville sc baggage claim. Only one problem: I was in Charlotte!!!

3. The original plan was to hide in the basement until Kristen got picked up to go downtown but now we had to stall until 530 when she would get picked up from the house and head downtown. I got in at 200! Lots of stalling...

4. Morgan(pickup) was an hour late! We were going to do the whole thing at 7 which would give us about an hour to get ready. Instead we had to push the time back to 730 because of the late pickup. Imagine how Morgan must've felt knowing everything was going on. Its ok Morgan it all worked out and you did great.

5. They got lost on the way downtown. We can't give them directions because we have to direct them to a certain direction and we are in the car driving to about the same location and the times could be thrown off again. So Eryn(plans and Kristen's roommate) had to direct them.

6. On the bridge, you can see this in the video the prom people(people that had prom that night) asked me to take a picture for them while Kristen was very close...I said sorry im kinda busy and the girl in the blue dress got some attitude and was like busy? ur just standing on a bridge? so i showed them the ring and they freaked out right before they took the picture!!

Anyway even though all these things happened it all worked out lovely. Thank you God!!

Now we're planning a wedding which is funny cuz my idea of fashion is plaid pants!!!

Keep us in your prayers, wedding, job for me in sc, vision, and wisdom is what we need right now. Thanks so much I love you all.

I'm out!!!

sorry guys

well i've been trying to find the time to write this blog but its been so busy around my life.

I will post on what went wrong with the engagement tomorrow. (Even though it worked out perfectly praise God)

David Jacks u and me are in the same boat along with some others around the area. And it seems for the last few weeks i was struggling just to hear God speak but the main thing is that it will come and for now whatever the next step is it will come and you will know it.

I'm excited and nervous. By the way i sent out a resume about a job in SC to someone in UPS about 4 weeks ago. No answer back at all! Freaks me out just a little bit. But i know that God is working and I can only wait and work while i wait.

Keep your head up i love all you guys keep me and kristen in your prayers.

I'm out!!!

So little time so much to say

i have like 3 minutes before i need to leave so ill make it quick.

This weekend:

got engaged it was exciting but it seemed like everything was going wrong but God worked it out to be an amazing time.

God is changing me and i am thankful i need prayer and i need time but i am excited about the impact that He is making and the things that are going to happen.

Jere Phillips is leaving: Goodbye sir(that's all im gonna say)
But I am praying that Russia and all the Muslims over there will get saved. Go God!!!

Reading Blue Like Jazz interesting sometimes real the others i love the book cuz its so transparent but some things are very unclear and diluted.

Looking forward to what God is going to do with me over the next 7 months before i go to greenville. God is gonna change my life in this time. Thanks for ya'll support let kristen know you love her and tell her she should write a blog to explain everything. Love you guys...


I'm out!!!

Thanks

First of all i want everyone to know that I am not going to Acworth, GA. That is not God's will for me at this point in my life. I still have preparation this is what confirmed this state that I am in right now in my life Exodus 2:15-17.

no one is coming to slay me but i still have something to do before I am ready to take on God's call for my life and I believe I know what it is.

I just want to thank you both J.R. and Todd. You have shaped my life more than you know. I've learned to challenge people and that its ok to use my passion outside of the church to benefit the people of the church.

I've learned that learning is good and that the Bible is inerrant and infallible. We went through Bible Doctrine and was extremely molded by that entire experience.

It seems that we've grown a little bit more distant because of my circumstances but know that both of you have made a lasting impact on my life. And also remember that if you ever want to get destroyed in soccer i'll only be like 2 hours away after i graduate.

I know that this is the right thing for all of us involved especially for me as I begin to prepare me and my future family. But again i thank you for all that you've done and will continue to do in my life. Thanks so much and if you ever need anything let me know.

Thanks....


I'm out....

sorry guys

i have so much to talk about but not alot of time. Sorry i've had the busiest week in history this past week and after this weekend i think it's going to all slow down for about 3 weeks which will give me a much needed break. Anyway big things happening very soon. I can't wait to tell you about them. Anyway hang out and also tell kristen that she needs to write a blog and david jacks that we need to do a video blog together but until next time peace out.

Also tropical mango tea from sonic.....AMAZING

i'm out.

I'm Sorry

First of all im so sorry for all of the people and the families of the va tech victims. I apologize for the people that won't let you grieve and for those grazy gun control and non gun control people that seem that their agenda is more important than the fact that you guys are grieving.

I wish that it didn't happen and im sorry that it is everywhere. Im praying for you and your family and i hope that some network out there instead of pushing their agenda would take the time to remember the victims and let them have their memorial instead of giving all the time to the guy that caused all of this.

Anyway im sorry to all the families and Know that I'm praying for you and again I'm so sorry.

out.

What I'm About...

Well in trying to discover who i really am I have found out some interesting things that are almost a habit for me now.

I am honest. When it comes to life or other people that want an honest opinion i give it. Ask my workers I'm probably the most honest guy that most of them know. This leaves me vulnerable in many situations but I also know that the truth is the best all the time.

I am creative. I have known this since probably about 5th grade when i wanted to be the first person on Mars not so everyone would know but instead to say i was the only person on the planet and run it for the short time i was on it how i wanted to.

I am bold. This is my most troublesome quality. To illustrate this a long time ago when i was a junior in high school i believe we had some issues in our student ministry many of the kids there would be all about it when they were there but in their daily activities the same commitment wasn't there. To Me this was HUGE!!! So i got up in front of everyone and introduced myself to the visitors because i didn't want to yell at people i didn't know...true story...so I told them that they were mocking the cross and I couldn't believe their actions and don't say that you come to this place because its an insult if you do. In front of 200 people i said that looking back. Probably won't do that but i speak my mind no matter what people think always have and more than likely always will.

And last but not least I'm frustrated. I think this is where God is growing me in passion for something meaningful. Because even though I am all of those things above I am not focused and concentrated.

To use my own analogy for a second. I'm like a beam of light, bright full of energy and I can do crazy things. Make things grow, offer nourishment, and even light up a dark situation but you know what i can't do: burn. I lack focus. I'm everywhere spread out good but not great.

I'm looking for God's giant magnifying glass to multiply my ability. Cuz right now I don't have a focus. Work, school, phone, driving, workers, ss class, are all of my activities. I need one spot magnified to light something on fire. That explains my entire situation. I lack focus. I need it I want it but I don't have it. So again I'm frustrated but like I've been hearing for almost ten years (which is nuts cuz im only 20) I have so much potential.

Blah Blah Blah is what i have to say about that. I'm not where i need to be and maybe its not time but God is in charge please don't take this out of context. God is in control of my life but I AM NOT GIVING ENOUGH IF I AM NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE.

That's where I am at. Jeff Hill hangout maybe tennis this week. David C. Jacks you too buddy i want to destroy some faces this weekend. Let's go Tigers!!!!

I'M OUT!!!!

Waiting to meet new folks

These past couple weeks i have been in more deep thought than ever before. One of the thoughts that is running through my head is how i will be separating from most of my friends when December ends. It will be a new time. I will miss them so much. I literally have the greatest friends in the world and Each one of them is extremely unique.

But I'm excited because I know that God is beginning something big in my life but I also know that God has partners and friends to join me along the way. I'm so excited to see the people that will join me in ministry in the future it makes me anxious and nervous but pumped at the same time.

I'm sad cuz two of my best friends is called by God into missions. Jeff Hill will be an incredible missionary and Cammo Price is going to be one as well. But I'm sad that they can't be a part of my life ya know. The Regulars: Me, Kristen, Jeff, Carmen, Lauren, and Cameron will be separated (even though we already are dissected some)

Its sad because they are and will be valuable members to any team and will make a huge impact where ever they end up.

But that's life live, learn, love and let go. It sad but encouraging that at the end we'll get to hear each other's stories from our short lives hear on earth. And laugh and joke like we always have. Anyway guys i know its a long way off but i just wanted to let you and all my friends know that I love you and I am who I am because of your friendship.

I'm Out Again!!!

What's up...

Well not much to talk about just found out that Stacie is now a University of Memphis cheerleader! That's pretty awesome. Especially if you know the story you should definitely ask her about it.

Anyway just wanted to see what was up with everybody Friday i put in a resume for a potential job when i get out of school. I should get an email back this week. Hope for the best.

Love you guys, I was sick this week and missed everyone at church and Jeff sorry i couldn't make it to your house i was doing a take home test and I HAD TO GET IT DONE! I was hoping the all caps would make it seem very important.

Anyway many decisions to make and am waiting for guidance. Have so much to do in the next few weeks end of school, position changes at work, tests, papers group assignments its gonna be nuts.

Thanks for thinking of me and reading this chatty post. Love you guys.

I'm Out!!!

To be Great or not To be Great?

U know i've been on this get to know me spat over the past couple of days so let's keep it going.

I've talked to a few people about this and im just really not sure.

Background: When i was a lil kid i dreamed of greatness, I wanted to be the greatest preacher, the greatest ballplayer, the greatest writer, the greatest teacher.

Whatever i did i strived to be the greatest.

Growing up i realized (or was told) how prideful that is. But now that I am thinking about it: Is it or Isn't it?

Did Moses become great because he strived or God put Him into that? Did David become great based on decisions he made or the opportunities that God gave Him?

I am not writing this blog to start another predestination argument but instead to know am i pursuing the wrong thing if I am pursuing greatness? Think about it and let me know.

I'm Out!!!

Who Am I?

well i know this is a weird subject but i wanted to write it for me and for those of you wondering where im at in life.

I've been struggling to find direction in my life and not general direction but specific direction. I know where I'm going but not what im doing when i get there if that makes any sense.

Well in that time i have had some time to think and have came up with things that i have learned about myself in the past few months:

I'm a hard worker who isn't working hard enough.

I've got potential but im not sure how much of it or how or through what way.

I think im ready but im scared.

I'm confused and i don't get confused.

I'm encouraged by my mom because she actually said i would be preaching one day (never did that)

I'm tired school, work, life is tough.

I'm fed up.

I talk a big game but if i backed up half of what i said i would be more of a man that i could ever imagine.

I say that i live for the next life but im not sure that i do sometimes.

God loves me and is not confused at all and yet all i do is worry lately.

I see competition as a relief from reality and that's why im competitive its my element its where i succeed.

I'm a Thompson we survive more under pressure situations than any family i can think of.

I want to learn to play golf.

I'm anxious to see what God wants me to do yet at the same time scared that i won't do it.

I'm learning that truthfulness is a scary part of life. Not something they tell you about in Disney movies.

I'm scared, I'm confused and not in control. I have God to lead me and i can't hear Him sometimes. Its the truth i need guidance and comfort yet i know that it can only come from God. So again like most of my life im stuck waiting.

It sucks where I'm at. I'm usually a sight for people without hope i bring an example of stability for the younger people around me but now its like im starting over.

I wish i knew my exact mission in life it would make life easier. But i didn't come into this world easy and i didn't sign up for the easy life either. So i guess ill have to wait to find out who i really am and who i am going to be.

cuz right now im just confused.

I'm out!!!

I'm upset

Well i was gonna either write a blog today about easter (overdone but not in any way underappreciated by me or the others writing the blog) or the blog i've been wanting to write about: Who Am I? Because about two years ago all my friends and everyone knew about me and what i was about and what i was up to.

Now with so much going on i just don't have that time that i wish that i had to just chill with people. So its almost like im shrouded in mystery and i don't want to be but that's just how it is.

But now for my blog. So i sat with the 'rents today at church and i was looking fly in some pinstripes but i digress.

So this awesome baby was in front of us completely behaved except for some minor noise not crying more like cooing.

Well then an usher had the nerve to come up to the mom and say "You know there is a room where you can take your baby when she gets too loud."

By the way there were two twins across the aisle crying like crazed birds the whole time. Not a word to them.

It was completely rude and uncalled for. I was ticked but to make sure i wasn't out of line i asked my truthful in your face sister and mom(that's where she got it from) and they were saying it was rude too.

I was completely upset that he had the audacity to say something like that. Secondly, i was perplexed as to why he told the quiet baby's momma that her calm baby could be taken to the nutso baby room. While the terrible twosome over there remained as unsatisfied as before.

This is where an atmosphere guy deviates. People are the key. Why would you say something that daring to a mom who has her handsfull already when the goblin and ghoul are howling like lil banshees. I would've been upset if i were the mom and it probably would've affected my feelings at that time about the service the church the people that go to church everything.

Y? Y? Y? Does it make sense am i insane who knows. But it seems to me if your atmosphere gets in the way of people and the message which i believe that it did then your atmosphere that you have worked so hard to achieve is in vain.

That's it keep the main thing the main thing.

I'm out.

Time to weigh in...

Well first of all it seems that there has been a quiet uproar over jeff hill's blog

by quiet uproar i mean people are upset by it but refuse to tell jeff about but want to see what others think.

first of all i would agree somewhat with what he said. I think that the problem is that we forget (as we were taught jeff) that only a beckoning of the Holy Spirit can allow us to have a choice as to our salvation. So when we get uproarious and rambucuous about not having a choice in the matter remember that.

secondly, this brings up a point that i won't talk about anymore but i want people to think about because i have. We have a gap between evangelists-traditionalists, there always has and there always will be there is not one right way to look at this issue of how we minister to people everyone is different.

Different strokes for Different folks.

Lastly jeff i say this to you, thank you for reading your bible, thank you for questioning, but be careful you are demeaning everyone who has ever preached from a pulpit by making general blanket statements. Please think before you speak especially about other people. I love you man and im glad that there are some young people that are ready to experience a life led by God.

No matter where it may lead.

I'm not an expert, heck im a marketing major. But to criticize(this is for everyone) and jump to conclusions without any evidence or guts to confront someone personally but instead to someone else or even on a computer screen is childish and obnoxious.

Breathe a little bit jeff isn't raising lil blue devil children, that's JR (just a Duke reference!!!)

However this subject is important and i don't think enough weight is given to God's role in salvation except for the cross and then we believe. We should be thanking God for beckoning us and the Holy Spirit for following through with what God said.

Pray for the Spirit that it would beckon others as well.

I'm Out!!!

Another Championship, Another Lie

Is it just me or does everytime someone thank God on tv after winning something just make you want to throw up. Well maybe not everytime but almost everytime.

I know that i sound like a 65 year old baptist church member who wants people to mature before they convert. But im serious on this one.

It drives me nuts to see people who you would never imagine thanking God for anything in their lives (three 6 mafia, lance armstrong, and rasheed wallace to name a few) thanking God for all that He has brought them through.

But also every year along with that i am sickened by the fact that someone else is going to talk about it.

Instead of talking about it why don't we do it. What if we lived like our life was a tribute to God. That we had the media following us everywhere and they couldn't find a fault.

What if people actually did God size things. I am talking to adults now. Kids dream we dream big. Most of the time to get our dreams crushed by our parents or a sunday school teacher who says you aren't ready for something that big yet.

Well how long does it stinkin take the rest of you guys out there. Frankly, we should see adults who are running successful businesses cuz they were fed up with bad customer service or a mom running a food distribution company because of what her kids were eating at school (by the way pizza should not taste like cardboard)

Where are these people that talk about a miraculous God but only from a third person perspective. Once in my life i would like to see 1 person who the media does nothing but talk about their relationship with God before they succeed and they do nothing but good and good and good afterwards.

Take Mike Maroth (P Detroit Tigers) he lost like 14 games in a row a couple of years ago and all the media would talk about was how did he feel about God now. He ended up losing 21 games that year. Did he turn out to be an all pro, no he's won about 25 games in two years. But i can bet that He was thanking God for every victory along the way and he might not have been i don't know the guy.

But i do know this we need people that aren't scared to take chances with God to let Him lead their passion and go full speed ahead and don't look back.

Think Big! I'm Out!!

Yes im posting about diets

if you know me then you know that im a fan of people that have goals, also you know that i don't like people that have goals but don't know how or don't try to reach them.

this blog is about the glycemic index.

this system seems to me to be the best diet that you can have out there. You don't do away with anything but instead swap things that you already eat.

this is the website: The Glycemic Index

anyway as you know i work a long time so i usually have between nine and ten hours between lunch and dinner. Crazy i know but true.

so i was looking for a way to eat the same amount of food but have the energy for a longer amount of time.

Basically what this thing is based on is glucose which if you don't know if a form of sugar. it is contained in almost everything that you eat and it releases sugar extremely fast into your body.

so the scale is based on glucose which =100 the lower numbers indicate foods that release sugar into your bloodstream at a slower rate which means that you feel less hungry for a longer amount of time.

the higher numbers indicate a quick rush of sugar to your body. You would eat these foods after a workout to quickly regain the energy that was lost.

Basically eat fruits and vegetables less potatoes and a lil pasta and wholegrain bread and the hunger virtually dissapears. Just thought i would let you know about my new view of food.

So much to write about

I have so stinking much to write about but no time or enough dedication to get it all on the blog. So a couple of things im thinkin of:

1. How many people need paternity tests? I watched Maury cuz i didn't want to get out of bed needless to say 5 minutes after learning that there are like 1,000s of people that don't know who the father of their kid is i got up and felt better about my life.

2. Derrick Rose is playing in the McDonald's all american game tonight. Best pg in the country is coming to memphis next year lets just say im excited.

3. Glycemic index i will talk more about this in the coming days very interesting.

4. God's planning. God is shaping me and Kristen for something big and i have no idea what it is or how it is going to happen or when but its growing inside and im excited.

5. I wish i could play the tuba for those moments in life when you need music to accompany you. That would be awesome.

6. I don't know who Sanjaya is but everyone hates him and for that he is now my favorite. Let's go Sanjy baby!

7. Duke fans are weird

8. I'm looking for a new car one that i can hit the gas and feel like a man in.

9. No more SSS i know you are all dissapointed but i have a few more ideas. word of the day, color of the day, and last but not least haircut of the day.

10. Yeah that's it man school is hard and starting salaries are going down what is happening to our economy.

I'm out!!!

Its Time!!!

Yeah today is the day i've been waiting on the whole year. The chance to prove the critics the experts everyone wrong. People don't think memphis is a real basketball town. I looked on facebook's standings today number 8 college network in the country and the top regional network in the country. I think that says something. Now the david of the tournament the team that lost more than any other team in the country( two first round draft picks and one european player) almost 40 points a game gone.

Now we can't compete with those big conferences. By the way Conf. USA is undefeated in the NCAA tourney!!!! No one wants to play us we're deep we're athletic and we play defense. Bring it. What to look for as we play the Nuts known as the Buckeyes...zone. OSU will play zone to try and take us out of our backdoor driving princeton offense. We must shoot the three well and take Ron Lewis out of the game. Conley will choke and no one likes to throw the ball to Oden. A good matchup for us even though Dorsey called him overrated (big mistake) Watch us root for us love us. It's our time. I'm out!!

I hate Mondays

I know this is on tuesday but mondays are the worst thing to ever happen to the planet earth.

You go back to work. You lose that extra sleep you built up over the weekend. Your boss thinks that you have to make up for lost time. Teachers do their best to give the hardest tests of your life(by the way i took a finance test yesterday and my batteries on my calc. went dead no replacement!!!) you have to start thinking about life again (or so it seems.)

Im getting tired. I go through this stage about once every quarter. The love of my life is in sc, i have no real ministry besides the guys at my job, I have been doing the drive and hour-school-drive 35 minutes-work-drive 40 minutes-eat-sleep routine for almost 3 years now.

But i've finally found a bright spot. I know that i am worthless without christ puppeteering me into an oscar winning performance(bad analogy i know but meaningful to me) but my vision for my life along with Kristen has begun. It will take time and effort and i don't know how that path will align itself. But my vision is growing and gaining strength.

My path now has a general direction and my passion and fervor is growing. Its not earth shattering and for some of you you might just say "...uh yeah and" but i know that God is molding my future and am excited more than ever about it. I pray that God will continue to shape mine and Kristen's lives and that my path will be alight with a fire that can never be quenched. Oh yeah for those of you that work part time don't call into work. Grow up you stinkin lazy bums!!!


SSS: I'm trying one today to reward myself for surviving Monday...It's a cherry limeade with blue coconut!!! Seems weird but which of these haven't try it today and also if you don't have anything to do tot rejection game

Pray for me as my journey is just beginning!!! Love you guys I'm out.

Let's go Memphis

I'm waiting for todays game and am pumped. Let me explain life to you as a memphis fan. Number one we win by about 15 and we hear on cbs and espn that we are definitely the next team to lose even though its seems extremely strange to me that two years in a row the team that is "our test" gets to play at home.

But if we lose they will talk about how they expected it all along and we are just not that good. Undefeated in conference, 23 in a row, 31 total. Yeah i guess that is a bad team huh. Bring on all the big conference talk its coming i know. Just make sure you watch us play. Let's go tigers!!!

Parents

Parents are interesting things. They have our best interests in mind but sometimes its just like they don't want us to risk anything they just want us to be safe our whole lives.

My parents are worried that i might be trying to over step my bounds by taking summer classes and that i shouldn't push myself too hard. By the way this is coming from my dad who works about 14 hours a day. So he knows a lil of what he is talking about. Anyway, I'm trying to get done so i can get married and get a real job and move into the next phase of my life. All the while knowing that i have no idea as to my mission in life yet.

All of which is ok for me. This just adds to my blog yesterday about stress. But last night as i am thinking about what i read during the day in my reading time. I find this in Matthew Henry's commentary in J.C.'s paraphrase. God uses stress to bring us closer and causes us to rely on Him. If we give into that stress and fear then we allow ourselves room for the credit that is not due.

Look i don't have in depth plans or a long term goal (yet!) but i know that God is shaping me and Kristen for something that is bigger than both of us. Something that i could never have imagined.

Where? Don't know
When? Don't know
How? Don't know
What? Don't know
Why? Cuz God wills it that way and its the mission for my life.

I'm on a quest i know it sounds archaic and has a touch of classicism but nevertheless I am. And each day is another page turned to ultimately reach the end of my novel here on earth.

SSS: Blue Coconut in a Vanilla Shake pure bliss!!!!

Remember to root for the Tigers tomorrow!!! I'm out.

God is Funny

Isn't it funny sometimes how much God can just throw us for a whirlwind of a life in like three weeks. Ill give you a sample of what the last three weeks has been in good ol drummonds, tn.

Girlfriend is outta town very lonely, girlfriend comes in town not lonely, girlfriend has to leave again lonely again.

Told more than likely ill be switching areas at work. Won't switch areas at work.

Have to pay car insurance but glad it goes down later this year. Looking for a new car, don't have the money for a new car.

Been looking forward to a ring and summer school, find out that they both are mucho dinero and now am stressed about money (not cuz i can't get it by the way but i have some beliefs on how God wants you to spend your money and how you deal with debt).

Trying to invest and save but at the same time realize that i have to spend money to invest in current assets (people, friends, family etc. yes they are important assets.

All this to say the other day Kristen said "you just don't get stressed out about stuff [like this]" she was talking about one of her own stress factors. I did this to let everyone know that i do stress out.

But its funny that people talk about how we shouldn't feel stressed and how stress is really bad for you and all that is true. Ill probably die at like age 32 if i don't get back to being fit again. But how can we deal not only with stress but these God ordained times of decision.


And i've learned something important God wants us to experience Him in life now to understand more fully what life will be like for eternity.

Don't you think that God could have opened a sinkhole when the Egyptians were chasing the Hebrews? or took them a different way? There are millions of possible solutions but God wanted the Hebrews to experience, to walk with Him, to see Him working literally on all sides of them.

God doesn't put decisions in front of us to stress us out but to draw us deeper into our intimacy with Him. Talk to Him today to figure out how he wants to change you but more importantly just talk to Him.

SSS: this is more of an announcement. No more peanut butter!!! maybe this is just around here or everywhere im not really sure but the peanut butter is gone. Sad Day....


I'm out!!!

1,000 Days!!!!

yes its correct yesterday was mine and kristen's 1000 day together. Its kinda crazy actually that someone could put up with me for so long. Not cuz im a bad guy or anything like that im just weird. I love you and thanks for the best 1,000 days of my life.

Quick Blog

hey quick go tigers. Kristen Barfield is wonderful and i am once again lonely. I am going to play basketball this weekend i haven't played in ages sweet.

SSS: look at Josh Currie's blog for the SSS I'm out!!!!

Goals vs. Mission

First before i start not going to talk about atmosphere. Second I am going to talk about something that is relevant.

If you know me one word you would probably use to describe me is driven. If not then you probably don't know me well enough. I learned something in my advertising and promotion class today that has never been clearly defined ever before and i think that it will help us all.

A mission is a reason for existence. Goals are things that you do to reach your mission. Usually we see these terms as synonymous but they are clearly different.

So i ask you what is your mission??? Why are you here on earth??? Why do you exist???

I would venture to say that we don't clearly have that defined but when we do it will keep us focused on what our goals should be.

SSS: New Banana Pudding shake i haven't tried it but i love banana so im super excited. Go get one now!!!

I'm Out!!!

No Church For Me

Well i didn't go to church at all yesterday which is very weird for me to do. My uncle has been at my house all weekend helping us fix up our bathrooms and stuff. So its like extreme makeover home edition at my house except for we pay for it and we put it in and in no way did any of us cry when it was finished.

Also it gave me a chance to listen to different people i wouldn 't normally hear preach. I heard Steve Gaines at Bellevue, a little of Charles Stanley, and some other guys i have never heard of before. Its always nice to hear different people speak and it provides balance in your spiritual walk.

Not only that but i got to go to the last Memphis home basketball game of the year. It was fun but the atmosphere was pitiful. I am going to talk about this subject probably tommorrow but i will stop there for now.

I also went to Blockbuster to get Madden 07 for the Wii. I've always wondered how awesome my arm would be against professional competition. While i was there this kid rushed in with his parents and instantly flies to the new movie called flushed away. I have no idea what it was about but he wanted it more than anything in the world.

Now this is going to be one of those you had to be there stories but i laughed so hard so i have to tell you: this kid's mom tells her son that he needs to pass his spelling test before he can get the movie. Now in my mind im thinking "sweet im going to get to see this kid pull one over on his mom" cuz kids usually get what they want.

The son proceeds to say who is Patrick Spellingtest??? I laugh and shake my head more at the fact that while this was clearly innocent I saw it as a clear diversion to try and fool the mom into thinking the kid didn't know what was going on and try in a valiant effort to bring the movie home with him.

Moral of the story: spend time with your kids and reward their achievement. They want to be challenged and loved by their parents.

SSS: How bout a chocolate coke today??? Sounds gross right....but until you've tried the caramel flavor of a classic coca-cola with the delightfully indulging rich taste of chocolate you haven't truly experienced life to the fullest...See what you've been missing!!!

And you wonder why I'm in marketing...hahaha I'm out!!!!