as i coming to the end of my bachelor's degree (praise God im almost done) i find myself more perplexed than when i started.
it will take some explaining to clarify what i mean but understand that i am in no way upset or unsatisfied with where i'm at. God has me at this point in my life for a reason.
I'm learning so many new things im looking at God's word in a more powerful way and yet at the same time it just seems that i am not worthy for the brevity of the situation the world and our country is in and also that im just scared to be honest.
not in a way that everyone else says that they aren't worthy but really am not worthy. and totally frightened by the fact that my call might be to ministry.
we live in a society that is filled with so many different messages. and i am like paul in a way i feel perplexed
im not in despair but i am faced with a decision that i must make both i believe are viable decisions and while there are positive and negative aspects of both i realize that i am called to one and one alone i just don't know which one it is.
do i take the path of being a manager and executive a salesman that leads people and molds them into good men and that i would be able to provide a much better living and situation for my family?
or do i teach men about the word, about God and show them a life that is changed and committed and honest and real and sacrifice some of the better things for my family. by the way this means that my bride will always be in the spotlight and church people will just jump at the chance to slander me not to my face but hers and my children will bear the weight of being under a microscope and that not only will God judge along with their parents but also every member of the congregation that we are a part of?
am i confused yes am i growing impatient but i also know that there are many decisions in life like this. and i also understand that a man is not where he works but who he is.
but still the decision remains unanswered and i wait for the answer.
is it my decision to make? will it be made for me?
time will tell but know that me and my family need your prayers and more importantly God's hand in our lives. thanks for the time that you all take to read this blog and understand that i treasure each of your opinions.
i love you guys
GO GOD!!! YOU WILL TRIUMPH IN ALL THINGS!!!!
OUT....
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GRACE: from the greek CHARIS meaning(abstr. or concr.; lit., fig., or spiritual; espec. the divine influence upon the heart, and its reflection in the life; incl. gratitude)
1 comment:
JC,
It sounds like God is moving in your life. You talked about your family being put in the line of fire because of you serving God. Just Know evil is will attack you first then your family, but stand firm. This might sound dumb but it holds true for me. Pray always! Pray not for God "to keep your family safe" but that God would just use your wife, your child no matter the cost. He will bless you and your family. I would also like to tell you will have to draw the line and cut out people of your life that will act like a friend and will try to destroy your family. Be prepared, Satan knows if he can cause family problem your work for God is affected. Be on guard. He has all ready started.
I love the way you do thing with love. Keep pressing on.
Dan Nelson
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