10 days is a long time

I've been in the Atl the past week for my cousin's graduation and kristen is in town so there has been an obvious delay.

I'm posting to raise the awareness of where i'm at right now. I am almost finished with a book called 7 Biblical Truths you won't hear in church by David A. Rich.

Its very good but i have some problems with one of the chapters. Its called Living for Jesus will frustrate you.

It talks about how trying to live for Jesus is unbiblical. And so is trying to repay Him. The logic and summary of the chapter is that God will accomplish His will in you no matter what which leaves me to think to myself what in the heck am I supposed to be here for.

I know that God is all powerful and that He in no way needs me understand that i truly do understand all of that but where do my day to day actions fit in. Its not explained very well by Mr. Rich so im trying to find an answer if you get a chance pick up the book its really good.

But more than anything read your Bible its got all the answers. and if you have anything to help me with this subject please comment and let me know im trying to find some information on it. Thanks.

Love you guys and i wouldn't expect another blog for awhile at least until Kristen leaves. I'm kinda busy for a change!!!!


I'm out!!!

well im on the way to recovery

well i still have no idea what is wrong but i finally am starting to feel a little bit better it seems like.

I have probably the worst digestive system of a 20 year old male on earth its nuts, but frankly im done talking about it.

This is where im at: i talked about a month ago to a "representative" from UPS in greenville, sc and sent a resume i also called about a week after so she could confirm that she received my resume.

well she never called back...

yesterday i called again and she answered and said that my resume is pending. They are not accepting transfer employees right now. And i don't want to transfer i want a job in greenville and if i have to give up my seniority that's fine but UPS doesn't understand that.

So anyway to say im not worried is crazy but i don't graduate for another 7 months so shouldn't worry right?

anyway if you know someone in greenville, sc who needs an overachieving ultra competitive marketing guy let them know im coming.

Plus God is teaching me so much and im really into my discipleship class its gonna be awesome. Debate this week seriously if you want to know both sides of calvinism vs. free will show up at 8 on Sunday its gonna rock and im pumped.

Plus im gonna get married! (i just realized how the exclamation point is very overrated it doesn't express my excitement enough)

I have so much to learn and i'm still very much the clay being pounded and needs way more pounding by my loving Potter.

Also, think about this, reading a lot of different books right now and one of the things that pointed out that i have never heard. God's will involves the Word, the Holy Spirit and our will.

Our will? The book said that the biggest obstacle we have to overcome is a lack of commitment and that is where we struggle just think about that. Where is your commitment is it to safety, your pleasure or is it in God's will???

Love you guys.

i'm out

so about my stomach

the doctor called last night and gave me a prescription that i have to take with gatorade. But he also said "I don't really know what's wrong with you."

so hopefully this medicine that he is giving me (which doesn't even really fit my condition only because no one knows what my condition is) will fix my insides.

Anyway love you guys have a great week.

Kristen i miss you and can't wait to see you on Friday!!!

i'm out....

mother's day

A tribute to my mother:

for all the times you've cooked my food
cleaned the house,
washed my clothes,
For the moral support
the loudest cheers in the stands
the truth no matter what.
For teaching me about boldness
for showing me love,
for bragging on me
for being an example

and most of all for the PRAYER!!!!

We probably go through more stuff than alot of people mom but you were truly ordained by God to be my mother. You match wits with me and still love me all the same.

And one thing i know for sure because everyday i've woken up and you are always and i mean always (no joke its like you don't sleep) you are praying with the longest prayer list ever and you won't stop until you complete the thing. And I know that it has done nothing but keep me here

So mom thanks....for everything

i'm out

update on stomach

well i went to the doctor yesterday and i thought for a minute i was right.

he told me that he thought that i had appendicitis and that i needed to go have a ct scan. so i went there dranked what felt like a gallon of this strange yellow substance that would coat my insides so the machine could take a picture of me.

i then take the picture and after about 20 minutes they told me i could go home! (confused, i sure was) they didn't say what was wrong but they didn't think it was serious enough to do surgery in the meantime my stomach is ok but still something is wrong. So anyway Monday they should tell me what's going on.

Anyway thanks for your thoughts and prayers and i love all you guys especially you kristen you make me a better person dear....

Time to look for some more stomach illnesses

I'm out.

yeah still having stomach problems

so im going to the doctor today and i still have no idea what is wrong and i have been looking online (which is crazy)

don't look online if there is something wrong with you you will always look up the worst thing. From my intense search online i think that i have appendicitis.

The symptoms seem to match up but when i get to the doctor he will probably tell me i ate some bad potato chips and it will wear off or something.

anyway pray that i just have a really bad tummy ache.

I'm out.

Challenging word

hey challenging word by jeff today in his blog check it out.

To me this is incredibly convicting. Is it enough to suffer persecution for being a virgin or not drinking or not dropping a f-bomb or any other curse word. Is that real persecution??? Cuz again i suffer this but compared to others around the world that is nothing.

Am I doing enough, no. So extremely convicting post. I love the Bible read it, learn it, love it.

Interesting thing i read the other day really came alive through Matthew Henry's commentary. When building the temple in Exodus

The Basin made for washing was made from the mirrors of the women! How treasured are those items ladies. Imagine the sacrifice to give up your mirror for the cleansing of the priests. Again God requires the best and in this instance it involved those women that were "eminent and exemplary for devotion"

What would you give up for Christ, (believe me completely speaking to myself) is it enough did it hurt when you gave it. Count it a joy and allow God to bless you. Is there a need go and meet it and don't hold back and sit on the bench.

It's time Crosspointe to step up to the plate. Quit sitting in the shadows and running that mouth. Don't sing it bring it.

I'm out.

Stomach pain

Well after my last blog which was feeled with disgust I have developed some of the worst pain i have ever had.

Last night i literally thought i was gonna die. My pain was destroying my insides and it was unbelievable that something that brings me so much joy is now my sworn enemy.

I think it is one of a couple of things:

1. really bad gas

2. My appendix was throwing a party and accidentally blew itself up with a firecracker.

3. I ate a whole porcupine and it wasn't very happy about that.

4.Or this

I'm guessing number four but i really need a new stomach

Pray that i live

I'm out.

I'm a scientologist!!!

yeah well at least that's what my mom told me i was the other day. It pretty much ticked me off mainly because she has no idea what that even is.

also things that have made me mad. Pretty much all day yesterday at church. I really want to post about something but im sure i will say something that i will not say in love so i will not post about it.

I was also told last night by guess who an old person about how i need to help stack chairs. Which is only funny number one because i had just stacked chairs and secondly because it was more important for this person to suggest that people that were younger than her to pick up chairs than to actually make an effort to pick up chairs.

It was like she was in ms. pac-man running around trying to eat all the young people she could find because she wanted to let us know how irresponsible we are because we aren't as close to death as she is.

Also this came to my realization the other day. Is there anywhere in the Bible that talks about older people being an example for those younger than them? This is a serious question. These are some reasons i want to know:

1.If we believe that the whole Bible is true why have i only heard how important it is to obey your parents and respect your elders but never heard how you should be an example to your kids (even though it has been assumed or alluded to it has never been specifically addressed.

2.If it is not in there should it explain something to adults (oldies) that the Bible addresses young people so much and old people not so much????

3.Why must adults quarrel? I want to say so much more on this but im sure I'll be called a muslim or an occult leader so i will hold back.

Man please read your Bibles It makes me so angry to see people just throw around Bible verses that are so completely out of context it shouldn't even be allowed as intellectual thought.

Hey Crosspointe wake up!!! Quit trying to hide things. Quit trying to please everyone. Quit bickering. By the way Read This

I pray that love would flood my life cuz its not there right now and I'm just praying that God would be glorified in this in some way.

I'm out

weekend thoughts

I'm so stinkin excited about tomorrow morning!

I will be taking over the 8 o clock class tomorrow and im so pumped. I'm getting an opportunity to lead kids that show up at 8 in the morning to learn about God!

I have plans and dreams that I want these kids to take over from me in these next couple of months and im pretty sure that I haven't been this excited about our church in a long time. Which is definitely a reflection on me not just our church.


If you read this make it to the 8 o clock sunday school hour and hang on for the ride of your life. It gets started tomorrow.

P.S. i don't listen to music much on the radio but today i decided to and im glad that i did. I heard a country love song where the chorus ends with the line:

"I want to check you for ticks"

Funniest line in music history!!!

Love you guys pray for tomorrow that God chooses to bless that time!!!

I'm out.

Vision

So this morning i had this dream that a bat (not baseball but like a flying rat) had flown on my head while i was sleeping and was just staying there and was flappin all crazy and stuff so i woke up and grabbed the closest thing and starting to destroy my pillow.

It was a dream and i laughed as im sure you are now.

But this is what i needed today. Sometimes something feels so stinkin real and you just have to act on it.

For a long time i've struggled with vision for my life. You guys know me if i have a vision or a goal i go get it. (usually faster than someone else(a lil joke about my competitive spirit))

But i haven't and still don't have a clear vision, which i heard today is this:

'a compelling picture of a preferable future that inspires us to perform'

that is what i want. But now i understand that you can't manufacture it. It has to be given by God. I pray that one day my vision is not big but colossal and that God will use my flawed and weak self to change as many people's lives as possible.

God used leaders to fix problems and change lives, but He showed them the need first. Well now there is a need. My vision while not my main vision or mission in life it is what i must do.

Please pray for me as i follow God and pray that i will listen. I really need your prayers in this area of my life. Please pray. Love you guys. To God be the glory, great things He has done.

I'm out

See what had happened was...

well here's what went wrong:

1. a wire came loose on my flight from Memphis, I was supposed to leave at 735 am but didn't board the plane until 9 am!!

2. i sent msgs. to josh bradley(guy filming the video and in on the plans) trying to let him know that i would miss my connecting flight because of the delay, he didn't get them. Mrs. Beth (Kristen's mom) sent me a txt saying she was waiting in the greenville sc baggage claim. Only one problem: I was in Charlotte!!!

3. The original plan was to hide in the basement until Kristen got picked up to go downtown but now we had to stall until 530 when she would get picked up from the house and head downtown. I got in at 200! Lots of stalling...

4. Morgan(pickup) was an hour late! We were going to do the whole thing at 7 which would give us about an hour to get ready. Instead we had to push the time back to 730 because of the late pickup. Imagine how Morgan must've felt knowing everything was going on. Its ok Morgan it all worked out and you did great.

5. They got lost on the way downtown. We can't give them directions because we have to direct them to a certain direction and we are in the car driving to about the same location and the times could be thrown off again. So Eryn(plans and Kristen's roommate) had to direct them.

6. On the bridge, you can see this in the video the prom people(people that had prom that night) asked me to take a picture for them while Kristen was very close...I said sorry im kinda busy and the girl in the blue dress got some attitude and was like busy? ur just standing on a bridge? so i showed them the ring and they freaked out right before they took the picture!!

Anyway even though all these things happened it all worked out lovely. Thank you God!!

Now we're planning a wedding which is funny cuz my idea of fashion is plaid pants!!!

Keep us in your prayers, wedding, job for me in sc, vision, and wisdom is what we need right now. Thanks so much I love you all.

I'm out!!!

sorry guys

well i've been trying to find the time to write this blog but its been so busy around my life.

I will post on what went wrong with the engagement tomorrow. (Even though it worked out perfectly praise God)

David Jacks u and me are in the same boat along with some others around the area. And it seems for the last few weeks i was struggling just to hear God speak but the main thing is that it will come and for now whatever the next step is it will come and you will know it.

I'm excited and nervous. By the way i sent out a resume about a job in SC to someone in UPS about 4 weeks ago. No answer back at all! Freaks me out just a little bit. But i know that God is working and I can only wait and work while i wait.

Keep your head up i love all you guys keep me and kristen in your prayers.

I'm out!!!