10 days is a long time

I've been in the Atl the past week for my cousin's graduation and kristen is in town so there has been an obvious delay.

I'm posting to raise the awareness of where i'm at right now. I am almost finished with a book called 7 Biblical Truths you won't hear in church by David A. Rich.

Its very good but i have some problems with one of the chapters. Its called Living for Jesus will frustrate you.

It talks about how trying to live for Jesus is unbiblical. And so is trying to repay Him. The logic and summary of the chapter is that God will accomplish His will in you no matter what which leaves me to think to myself what in the heck am I supposed to be here for.

I know that God is all powerful and that He in no way needs me understand that i truly do understand all of that but where do my day to day actions fit in. Its not explained very well by Mr. Rich so im trying to find an answer if you get a chance pick up the book its really good.

But more than anything read your Bible its got all the answers. and if you have anything to help me with this subject please comment and let me know im trying to find some information on it. Thanks.

Love you guys and i wouldn't expect another blog for awhile at least until Kristen leaves. I'm kinda busy for a change!!!!


I'm out!!!

well im on the way to recovery

well i still have no idea what is wrong but i finally am starting to feel a little bit better it seems like.

I have probably the worst digestive system of a 20 year old male on earth its nuts, but frankly im done talking about it.

This is where im at: i talked about a month ago to a "representative" from UPS in greenville, sc and sent a resume i also called about a week after so she could confirm that she received my resume.

well she never called back...

yesterday i called again and she answered and said that my resume is pending. They are not accepting transfer employees right now. And i don't want to transfer i want a job in greenville and if i have to give up my seniority that's fine but UPS doesn't understand that.

So anyway to say im not worried is crazy but i don't graduate for another 7 months so shouldn't worry right?

anyway if you know someone in greenville, sc who needs an overachieving ultra competitive marketing guy let them know im coming.

Plus God is teaching me so much and im really into my discipleship class its gonna be awesome. Debate this week seriously if you want to know both sides of calvinism vs. free will show up at 8 on Sunday its gonna rock and im pumped.

Plus im gonna get married! (i just realized how the exclamation point is very overrated it doesn't express my excitement enough)

I have so much to learn and i'm still very much the clay being pounded and needs way more pounding by my loving Potter.

Also, think about this, reading a lot of different books right now and one of the things that pointed out that i have never heard. God's will involves the Word, the Holy Spirit and our will.

Our will? The book said that the biggest obstacle we have to overcome is a lack of commitment and that is where we struggle just think about that. Where is your commitment is it to safety, your pleasure or is it in God's will???

Love you guys.

i'm out

so about my stomach

the doctor called last night and gave me a prescription that i have to take with gatorade. But he also said "I don't really know what's wrong with you."

so hopefully this medicine that he is giving me (which doesn't even really fit my condition only because no one knows what my condition is) will fix my insides.

Anyway love you guys have a great week.

Kristen i miss you and can't wait to see you on Friday!!!

i'm out....

mother's day

A tribute to my mother:

for all the times you've cooked my food
cleaned the house,
washed my clothes,
For the moral support
the loudest cheers in the stands
the truth no matter what.
For teaching me about boldness
for showing me love,
for bragging on me
for being an example

and most of all for the PRAYER!!!!

We probably go through more stuff than alot of people mom but you were truly ordained by God to be my mother. You match wits with me and still love me all the same.

And one thing i know for sure because everyday i've woken up and you are always and i mean always (no joke its like you don't sleep) you are praying with the longest prayer list ever and you won't stop until you complete the thing. And I know that it has done nothing but keep me here

So mom thanks....for everything

i'm out

update on stomach

well i went to the doctor yesterday and i thought for a minute i was right.

he told me that he thought that i had appendicitis and that i needed to go have a ct scan. so i went there dranked what felt like a gallon of this strange yellow substance that would coat my insides so the machine could take a picture of me.

i then take the picture and after about 20 minutes they told me i could go home! (confused, i sure was) they didn't say what was wrong but they didn't think it was serious enough to do surgery in the meantime my stomach is ok but still something is wrong. So anyway Monday they should tell me what's going on.

Anyway thanks for your thoughts and prayers and i love all you guys especially you kristen you make me a better person dear....

Time to look for some more stomach illnesses

I'm out.

yeah still having stomach problems

so im going to the doctor today and i still have no idea what is wrong and i have been looking online (which is crazy)

don't look online if there is something wrong with you you will always look up the worst thing. From my intense search online i think that i have appendicitis.

The symptoms seem to match up but when i get to the doctor he will probably tell me i ate some bad potato chips and it will wear off or something.

anyway pray that i just have a really bad tummy ache.

I'm out.

Challenging word

hey challenging word by jeff today in his blog check it out.

To me this is incredibly convicting. Is it enough to suffer persecution for being a virgin or not drinking or not dropping a f-bomb or any other curse word. Is that real persecution??? Cuz again i suffer this but compared to others around the world that is nothing.

Am I doing enough, no. So extremely convicting post. I love the Bible read it, learn it, love it.

Interesting thing i read the other day really came alive through Matthew Henry's commentary. When building the temple in Exodus

The Basin made for washing was made from the mirrors of the women! How treasured are those items ladies. Imagine the sacrifice to give up your mirror for the cleansing of the priests. Again God requires the best and in this instance it involved those women that were "eminent and exemplary for devotion"

What would you give up for Christ, (believe me completely speaking to myself) is it enough did it hurt when you gave it. Count it a joy and allow God to bless you. Is there a need go and meet it and don't hold back and sit on the bench.

It's time Crosspointe to step up to the plate. Quit sitting in the shadows and running that mouth. Don't sing it bring it.

I'm out.

Stomach pain

Well after my last blog which was feeled with disgust I have developed some of the worst pain i have ever had.

Last night i literally thought i was gonna die. My pain was destroying my insides and it was unbelievable that something that brings me so much joy is now my sworn enemy.

I think it is one of a couple of things:

1. really bad gas

2. My appendix was throwing a party and accidentally blew itself up with a firecracker.

3. I ate a whole porcupine and it wasn't very happy about that.

4.Or this

I'm guessing number four but i really need a new stomach

Pray that i live

I'm out.

I'm a scientologist!!!

yeah well at least that's what my mom told me i was the other day. It pretty much ticked me off mainly because she has no idea what that even is.

also things that have made me mad. Pretty much all day yesterday at church. I really want to post about something but im sure i will say something that i will not say in love so i will not post about it.

I was also told last night by guess who an old person about how i need to help stack chairs. Which is only funny number one because i had just stacked chairs and secondly because it was more important for this person to suggest that people that were younger than her to pick up chairs than to actually make an effort to pick up chairs.

It was like she was in ms. pac-man running around trying to eat all the young people she could find because she wanted to let us know how irresponsible we are because we aren't as close to death as she is.

Also this came to my realization the other day. Is there anywhere in the Bible that talks about older people being an example for those younger than them? This is a serious question. These are some reasons i want to know:

1.If we believe that the whole Bible is true why have i only heard how important it is to obey your parents and respect your elders but never heard how you should be an example to your kids (even though it has been assumed or alluded to it has never been specifically addressed.

2.If it is not in there should it explain something to adults (oldies) that the Bible addresses young people so much and old people not so much????

3.Why must adults quarrel? I want to say so much more on this but im sure I'll be called a muslim or an occult leader so i will hold back.

Man please read your Bibles It makes me so angry to see people just throw around Bible verses that are so completely out of context it shouldn't even be allowed as intellectual thought.

Hey Crosspointe wake up!!! Quit trying to hide things. Quit trying to please everyone. Quit bickering. By the way Read This

I pray that love would flood my life cuz its not there right now and I'm just praying that God would be glorified in this in some way.

I'm out

weekend thoughts

I'm so stinkin excited about tomorrow morning!

I will be taking over the 8 o clock class tomorrow and im so pumped. I'm getting an opportunity to lead kids that show up at 8 in the morning to learn about God!

I have plans and dreams that I want these kids to take over from me in these next couple of months and im pretty sure that I haven't been this excited about our church in a long time. Which is definitely a reflection on me not just our church.


If you read this make it to the 8 o clock sunday school hour and hang on for the ride of your life. It gets started tomorrow.

P.S. i don't listen to music much on the radio but today i decided to and im glad that i did. I heard a country love song where the chorus ends with the line:

"I want to check you for ticks"

Funniest line in music history!!!

Love you guys pray for tomorrow that God chooses to bless that time!!!

I'm out.

Vision

So this morning i had this dream that a bat (not baseball but like a flying rat) had flown on my head while i was sleeping and was just staying there and was flappin all crazy and stuff so i woke up and grabbed the closest thing and starting to destroy my pillow.

It was a dream and i laughed as im sure you are now.

But this is what i needed today. Sometimes something feels so stinkin real and you just have to act on it.

For a long time i've struggled with vision for my life. You guys know me if i have a vision or a goal i go get it. (usually faster than someone else(a lil joke about my competitive spirit))

But i haven't and still don't have a clear vision, which i heard today is this:

'a compelling picture of a preferable future that inspires us to perform'

that is what i want. But now i understand that you can't manufacture it. It has to be given by God. I pray that one day my vision is not big but colossal and that God will use my flawed and weak self to change as many people's lives as possible.

God used leaders to fix problems and change lives, but He showed them the need first. Well now there is a need. My vision while not my main vision or mission in life it is what i must do.

Please pray for me as i follow God and pray that i will listen. I really need your prayers in this area of my life. Please pray. Love you guys. To God be the glory, great things He has done.

I'm out

See what had happened was...

well here's what went wrong:

1. a wire came loose on my flight from Memphis, I was supposed to leave at 735 am but didn't board the plane until 9 am!!

2. i sent msgs. to josh bradley(guy filming the video and in on the plans) trying to let him know that i would miss my connecting flight because of the delay, he didn't get them. Mrs. Beth (Kristen's mom) sent me a txt saying she was waiting in the greenville sc baggage claim. Only one problem: I was in Charlotte!!!

3. The original plan was to hide in the basement until Kristen got picked up to go downtown but now we had to stall until 530 when she would get picked up from the house and head downtown. I got in at 200! Lots of stalling...

4. Morgan(pickup) was an hour late! We were going to do the whole thing at 7 which would give us about an hour to get ready. Instead we had to push the time back to 730 because of the late pickup. Imagine how Morgan must've felt knowing everything was going on. Its ok Morgan it all worked out and you did great.

5. They got lost on the way downtown. We can't give them directions because we have to direct them to a certain direction and we are in the car driving to about the same location and the times could be thrown off again. So Eryn(plans and Kristen's roommate) had to direct them.

6. On the bridge, you can see this in the video the prom people(people that had prom that night) asked me to take a picture for them while Kristen was very close...I said sorry im kinda busy and the girl in the blue dress got some attitude and was like busy? ur just standing on a bridge? so i showed them the ring and they freaked out right before they took the picture!!

Anyway even though all these things happened it all worked out lovely. Thank you God!!

Now we're planning a wedding which is funny cuz my idea of fashion is plaid pants!!!

Keep us in your prayers, wedding, job for me in sc, vision, and wisdom is what we need right now. Thanks so much I love you all.

I'm out!!!

sorry guys

well i've been trying to find the time to write this blog but its been so busy around my life.

I will post on what went wrong with the engagement tomorrow. (Even though it worked out perfectly praise God)

David Jacks u and me are in the same boat along with some others around the area. And it seems for the last few weeks i was struggling just to hear God speak but the main thing is that it will come and for now whatever the next step is it will come and you will know it.

I'm excited and nervous. By the way i sent out a resume about a job in SC to someone in UPS about 4 weeks ago. No answer back at all! Freaks me out just a little bit. But i know that God is working and I can only wait and work while i wait.

Keep your head up i love all you guys keep me and kristen in your prayers.

I'm out!!!

So little time so much to say

i have like 3 minutes before i need to leave so ill make it quick.

This weekend:

got engaged it was exciting but it seemed like everything was going wrong but God worked it out to be an amazing time.

God is changing me and i am thankful i need prayer and i need time but i am excited about the impact that He is making and the things that are going to happen.

Jere Phillips is leaving: Goodbye sir(that's all im gonna say)
But I am praying that Russia and all the Muslims over there will get saved. Go God!!!

Reading Blue Like Jazz interesting sometimes real the others i love the book cuz its so transparent but some things are very unclear and diluted.

Looking forward to what God is going to do with me over the next 7 months before i go to greenville. God is gonna change my life in this time. Thanks for ya'll support let kristen know you love her and tell her she should write a blog to explain everything. Love you guys...


I'm out!!!

Thanks

First of all i want everyone to know that I am not going to Acworth, GA. That is not God's will for me at this point in my life. I still have preparation this is what confirmed this state that I am in right now in my life Exodus 2:15-17.

no one is coming to slay me but i still have something to do before I am ready to take on God's call for my life and I believe I know what it is.

I just want to thank you both J.R. and Todd. You have shaped my life more than you know. I've learned to challenge people and that its ok to use my passion outside of the church to benefit the people of the church.

I've learned that learning is good and that the Bible is inerrant and infallible. We went through Bible Doctrine and was extremely molded by that entire experience.

It seems that we've grown a little bit more distant because of my circumstances but know that both of you have made a lasting impact on my life. And also remember that if you ever want to get destroyed in soccer i'll only be like 2 hours away after i graduate.

I know that this is the right thing for all of us involved especially for me as I begin to prepare me and my future family. But again i thank you for all that you've done and will continue to do in my life. Thanks so much and if you ever need anything let me know.

Thanks....


I'm out....

sorry guys

i have so much to talk about but not alot of time. Sorry i've had the busiest week in history this past week and after this weekend i think it's going to all slow down for about 3 weeks which will give me a much needed break. Anyway big things happening very soon. I can't wait to tell you about them. Anyway hang out and also tell kristen that she needs to write a blog and david jacks that we need to do a video blog together but until next time peace out.

Also tropical mango tea from sonic.....AMAZING

i'm out.

I'm Sorry

First of all im so sorry for all of the people and the families of the va tech victims. I apologize for the people that won't let you grieve and for those grazy gun control and non gun control people that seem that their agenda is more important than the fact that you guys are grieving.

I wish that it didn't happen and im sorry that it is everywhere. Im praying for you and your family and i hope that some network out there instead of pushing their agenda would take the time to remember the victims and let them have their memorial instead of giving all the time to the guy that caused all of this.

Anyway im sorry to all the families and Know that I'm praying for you and again I'm so sorry.

out.

What I'm About...

Well in trying to discover who i really am I have found out some interesting things that are almost a habit for me now.

I am honest. When it comes to life or other people that want an honest opinion i give it. Ask my workers I'm probably the most honest guy that most of them know. This leaves me vulnerable in many situations but I also know that the truth is the best all the time.

I am creative. I have known this since probably about 5th grade when i wanted to be the first person on Mars not so everyone would know but instead to say i was the only person on the planet and run it for the short time i was on it how i wanted to.

I am bold. This is my most troublesome quality. To illustrate this a long time ago when i was a junior in high school i believe we had some issues in our student ministry many of the kids there would be all about it when they were there but in their daily activities the same commitment wasn't there. To Me this was HUGE!!! So i got up in front of everyone and introduced myself to the visitors because i didn't want to yell at people i didn't know...true story...so I told them that they were mocking the cross and I couldn't believe their actions and don't say that you come to this place because its an insult if you do. In front of 200 people i said that looking back. Probably won't do that but i speak my mind no matter what people think always have and more than likely always will.

And last but not least I'm frustrated. I think this is where God is growing me in passion for something meaningful. Because even though I am all of those things above I am not focused and concentrated.

To use my own analogy for a second. I'm like a beam of light, bright full of energy and I can do crazy things. Make things grow, offer nourishment, and even light up a dark situation but you know what i can't do: burn. I lack focus. I'm everywhere spread out good but not great.

I'm looking for God's giant magnifying glass to multiply my ability. Cuz right now I don't have a focus. Work, school, phone, driving, workers, ss class, are all of my activities. I need one spot magnified to light something on fire. That explains my entire situation. I lack focus. I need it I want it but I don't have it. So again I'm frustrated but like I've been hearing for almost ten years (which is nuts cuz im only 20) I have so much potential.

Blah Blah Blah is what i have to say about that. I'm not where i need to be and maybe its not time but God is in charge please don't take this out of context. God is in control of my life but I AM NOT GIVING ENOUGH IF I AM NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE.

That's where I am at. Jeff Hill hangout maybe tennis this week. David C. Jacks you too buddy i want to destroy some faces this weekend. Let's go Tigers!!!!

I'M OUT!!!!

Waiting to meet new folks

These past couple weeks i have been in more deep thought than ever before. One of the thoughts that is running through my head is how i will be separating from most of my friends when December ends. It will be a new time. I will miss them so much. I literally have the greatest friends in the world and Each one of them is extremely unique.

But I'm excited because I know that God is beginning something big in my life but I also know that God has partners and friends to join me along the way. I'm so excited to see the people that will join me in ministry in the future it makes me anxious and nervous but pumped at the same time.

I'm sad cuz two of my best friends is called by God into missions. Jeff Hill will be an incredible missionary and Cammo Price is going to be one as well. But I'm sad that they can't be a part of my life ya know. The Regulars: Me, Kristen, Jeff, Carmen, Lauren, and Cameron will be separated (even though we already are dissected some)

Its sad because they are and will be valuable members to any team and will make a huge impact where ever they end up.

But that's life live, learn, love and let go. It sad but encouraging that at the end we'll get to hear each other's stories from our short lives hear on earth. And laugh and joke like we always have. Anyway guys i know its a long way off but i just wanted to let you and all my friends know that I love you and I am who I am because of your friendship.

I'm Out Again!!!

What's up...

Well not much to talk about just found out that Stacie is now a University of Memphis cheerleader! That's pretty awesome. Especially if you know the story you should definitely ask her about it.

Anyway just wanted to see what was up with everybody Friday i put in a resume for a potential job when i get out of school. I should get an email back this week. Hope for the best.

Love you guys, I was sick this week and missed everyone at church and Jeff sorry i couldn't make it to your house i was doing a take home test and I HAD TO GET IT DONE! I was hoping the all caps would make it seem very important.

Anyway many decisions to make and am waiting for guidance. Have so much to do in the next few weeks end of school, position changes at work, tests, papers group assignments its gonna be nuts.

Thanks for thinking of me and reading this chatty post. Love you guys.

I'm Out!!!